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<br />Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-35853576128543139652017-09-12T10:39:00.001-05:002017-09-12T10:39:55.743-05:00Re: Declined: [The Powers That Beat] Fwd: [Powers That Beat] Post chang... @ Wed Sep 13, 2017 4pm - 5pm<div><div><div dir="auto">WTAF </div><div dir="auto"><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBg6sViaqpAYuPrDLszOXeAjiU_Upb6Roo2wpYzDPPnY88ok_5gRew9Iu2hpciUJUqvQ3RxITz7ZgJ18CiMZi6e8GItpIfcUwazpoSBeNmc2CPGgcJJisxEKK9MrZIY-PWuwzcCFEeEWM/s1600/IMG_3549-795745.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBg6sViaqpAYuPrDLszOXeAjiU_Upb6Roo2wpYzDPPnY88ok_5gRew9Iu2hpciUJUqvQ3RxITz7ZgJ18CiMZi6e8GItpIfcUwazpoSBeNmc2CPGgcJJisxEKK9MrZIY-PWuwzcCFEeEWM/s400/IMG_3549-795745.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6464917045612403746" /></a></div><br></div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto"><div></div><div><a 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#ccc;background:#ffc;color:#222"><strong><span><span class="notranslate">E Durant</span></span> has declined this invitation.</strong></div><div style="padding:2px"><span></span><h3 style="padding:0 0 6px 0;margin:0;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:16px;font-weight:bold;color:#222"><span>[The Powers That Beat] Fwd: [Powers That Beat] Post changed: Well, LulzSec is back and it really just looks like a whole lot of Chilleh's. </span></h3><div style="padding-bottom:15px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222;white-space:pre-wrap!important;white-space:-moz-pre-wrap!important;white-space:-pre-wrap!important;white-space:-o-pre-wrap!important;white-space:pre-wrap;word-wrap:break-word"><span>On becoming a bot.<br></span></div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSvdfXtnj5JXM4rNjIZNaf_kMMHEym3Hb5HjlXVgwA_Nf_xHcxlWIwtQRwAaJkY8BAtGYD7AvaVlCMjeXTXPmc4htIvJ8JiqmeUpj6jOm63l91DhNkfOYZ4c9TQBLB1gpvT6H1buxuStg/s1600/IMG_3546-702654.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSvdfXtnj5JXM4rNjIZNaf_kMMHEym3Hb5HjlXVgwA_Nf_xHcxlWIwtQRwAaJkY8BAtGYD7AvaVlCMjeXTXPmc4htIvJ8JiqmeUpj6jOm63l91DhNkfOYZ4c9TQBLB1gpvT6H1buxuStg/s400/IMG_3546-702654.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6464917073798012098" /></a></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" border="0" summary="Event details"><tbody><tr><td style="padding:0 1em 10px 0;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#888;white-space:nowrap" valign="top"><div><i style="font-style:normal">When</i></div></td><td style="padding-bottom:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222" valign="top"><u></u><u></u><u></u><u></u>Wed Sep 13, 2017 4pm – 5pm <span style="color:#888">Coordinated Universal Time</span></td></tr><tr><td style="padding:0 1em 10px 0;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#888;white-space:nowrap" valign="top"><div><i style="font-style:normal">Calendar</i></div></td><td style="padding-bottom:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222" valign="top">DD</td></tr><tr><td style="padding:0 1em 10px 0;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#888;white-space:nowrap" valign="top"><div><i style="font-style:normal">Who</i></div></td><td style="padding-bottom:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222" valign="top"><table cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0"><tbody><tr><td style="padding-right:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222"><span style="font-family:Courier New,monospace">•</span></td><td style="padding-right:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222"><div><div style="margin:0 0 0.3em 0"><span class="notranslate"><a href="mailto:dailyddose@gmail.com" target="_blank">d</a>d </span><span style="font-size:11px;color:#888">organizer</span></div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-right:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222"><span style="font-family:Courier New,monospace">•</span></td><td style="padding-right:10px;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:13px;color:#222"><div><div style="margin:0 0 0.3em 0"><span><span class="notranslate">E Durant</span></span></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div></td></tr><tr><td style="background-color:#f6f6f6;color:#888;border-top:1px Solid #ccc;font-family:Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:11px"><p>Invitation from Xx </p><p>You are receiving this email at the account Xx because you are subscribed for invitation replies on calendar Xx</p><p>To stop receiving these emails, please log in to xx and change your notification settings for this calendar.</p><p>Forwarding this invitation could allow any recipient to modify your RSVP response. Xx</p></td></tr></tbody></table></div></span></span></blockquote></div></div></div> Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-66633116729284634962017-02-23T04:08:00.001-06:002017-02-23T04:08:38.852-06:00TwImg-20170216<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxIDcpEyNJ2S5tZLoyt6Z6jztJtM_7cn5BoH9njQfsW2jE7O3v_r4Ec6kHbYn8dVUFSHqGjpTkGrE3MJOnYkaZPEYUKdcsSGOF2uj4DItZjfSb0DE6lR73DzKizlXR7c3fzqWNNl-5FSA/s1600/%253D%253Futf-8%253FB%253FVHdJbWctMjAxNzAyMTYtMDAyNjU5LmpwZw%253D%253D%253F%253D-718853"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxIDcpEyNJ2S5tZLoyt6Z6jztJtM_7cn5BoH9njQfsW2jE7O3v_r4Ec6kHbYn8dVUFSHqGjpTkGrE3MJOnYkaZPEYUKdcsSGOF2uj4DItZjfSb0DE6lR73DzKizlXR7c3fzqWNNl-5FSA/s400/%253D%253Futf-8%253FB%253FVHdJbWctMjAxNzAyMTYtMDAyNjU5LmpwZw%253D%253D%253F%253D-718853" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6390243554604879986" /></a></p>Sent from my BlackBerry® by Boost MobileElyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-53307961625604151532017-02-11T09:21:00.000-06:002017-02-11T09:25:26.862-06:002011 Timeline of Cyber Attack: Updated 2017<font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Worst. Year. Ever. </span></font><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"></p><div><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><img src="photo_441058.jpg" border="0" class="bloggoimg"></span></font></div><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><br> <br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font><p></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><br></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font color="#000000" face="-webkit-standard"><br></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font color="#000000" face="-webkit-standard"><br></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font color="#000000" face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_1794.jpg" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; text-decoration: none;"><img src="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_1794.jpg" alt="" width="640" height="960" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-21942" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; height: auto; margin: 0px; min-width: 30px; min-height: 30px; max-width: 100%; opacity: 1;"></a><a href="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_8270.jpg" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; text-decoration: none;"><img src="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_8270.jpg" alt="" width="1024" height="993" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-21943" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; height: auto; margin: 0px; min-width: 30px; min-height: 30px; max-width: 100%; opacity: 1;"></a></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font color="#000000" face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; 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-webkit-touch-callout: none; text-decoration: none;"><img src="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_1539-1.jpg" alt="" width="333" height="500" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-21944" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; height: auto; margin: 0px; min-width: 30px; min-height: 30px; max-width: 100%; opacity: 1;"></a><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">image1.PNG</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font color="#000000" face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_0407.png" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; text-decoration: none;"><img src="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_0407.png" alt="" width="768" height="1024" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-21937" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; height: auto; margin: 0px; min-width: 30px; min-height: 30px; max-width: 100%; opacity: 1;"></a><a href="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_1539.jpg" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; text-decoration: none;"><img src="https://powersthatbeat.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/img_1539.jpg" alt="" width="333" height="500" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-21936" style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; height: auto; margin: 0px; min-width: 30px; min-height: 30px; max-width: 100%; opacity: 1;"></a><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Update June 29: 2011 Cyber Attacks (and Cyber Costs) Timeline (Updated)</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I found this interesting graph from an original Thomson Reuters post, showing the timeline of the major 2011 CyberAttacks.</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The graph shows all the main Cyber Events of this tremendous 2011 up to June, the 16th. Actually to be perfect it should include also the infamous Epsilon Data Breach, happened on March, the 30th. Probably it had a major impact on the U.S. rather than in Europe, but it is clear that the aftermaths of this breach will last for years in terms of spear-phishing attacks tarteting the affected users.</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Moreover, to be “ultra perfect”, it shpould also include the other attacks discovered against U.S. Defense Contractors (L-3 on April, the 6th, and Northrop Grumman on May, the 26th) should be considered as well.</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Even if some attacks are missing, the graph is useful (and meaningful) to show the easiness with which our data are at risk.</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Of course after June, the 16th, another cyber-attack leading to a breach was perpetrated against Sega (to be added to the list of Game Publisher), affecting 1.3 million users.</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Following the Sega Breach, in these last two days, after the #Antisec Manifesto and the consequent teaming between LulzSec and Anonymous, several government sites have been hit by massive DDoS attacks, including SOCA in UK, some sites affiliated to PM Silvio Berlusconi in Italy, and some Government Sites in Brazil.</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Related articles</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Sega Hit With Cyber Attack (shoppingblog.com)</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Another Breach In The Wall (paulsparrows.wordpress.com)</span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none;"></span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Via @twitter </span></font></p><p style="outline: transparent solid 0px; -webkit-touch-callout: none; line-height: 24px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 24px;"><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">http://www.hackmageddon.com/2011/06/22/2011-cyberattacks-timeline/</span></font></p><div><font face="-webkit-standard"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-43003770586450103632017-02-10T22:48:00.000-06:002017-11-06T21:37:17.844-06:002011 CyberAttacks Timeline Posted by Update June 29: 2011 Cyber Attacks
(and Cyber Costs) Timeline (Updated) I found this interesting graph
from an original Thomson Reuters post, showing the timeline of the
major 2011 CyberAttacks. The graph shows all the main Cyber Events of
this tremendous 2011 up to June, the 16th. Actually to be perfect it
should include also the infamous Epsilon Data Breach, happened on
March, the 30th. Probably it had a major impact on the U.S. rather than
in Europe, but it is clear that the aftermaths of this breach will last
for years in terms of spear-phishing attacks tarteting the affected
users. Moreover, to be “ultra perfect”, it shpould also include the
other attacks discovered against U.S. Defense Contractors (L-3 on
April, the 6th, and Northrop Grumman on May, the 26th) should be
considered as well. Even if some attacks are missing, the graph is
useful (and meaningful) to show the easiness with which our data are at
risk<div><br></div><div><div style="font-family:UICTFontTextStyleBody;font-size:23px"><div id="article" class="charter exported" style="font-family:Charter;font-size:1.2em;line-height:1.5em;margin:0px;padding:0px"><div class="page" style="word-wrap:break-word;max-width:100%"><h1 class="title" style="font-weight:400;line-height:1.2em;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0.5em;max-width:100%">2011 CyberAttacks Timeline</h1><div class="metadata" style="margin-bottom:1.45em;max-width:100%"><div class="clear byline" style="display:inline-block;margin:0px;max-width:100%;clear:both;font-size:1em!important"><span style="margin:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:1em!important">Posted by </span> </div></div><p style="max-width:100%"><strong style="max-width:100%">Update June 29: <a title="2011 Cyber Attacks (and Cyber Costs) Timeline (Updated)" href="http://paulsparrows.wordpress.com/2011/06/28/2011-cyber-attacks-and-cyber-costs-timeline-updated/" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">2011 Cyber Attacks (and Cyber Costs) Timeline (Updated)</a></strong></p><p style="max-width:100%"><a href="https://i2.wp.com/paulsparrows.files.wordpress.com/2011/06/cyber2_ci.jpg" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%"><img title="CYBER2_CI" src="https://i2.wp.com/paulsparrows.files.wordpress.com/2011/06/cyber2_ci.jpg?zoom=2&resize=288%2C769" alt="" width="288" height="770" class="clear" style="max-width: 100%; margin: 0.5em auto; display: block; height: auto; clear: both;"></a></p><p style="max-width:100%">I found this interesting graph from an original <a href="http://blog.thomsonreuters.com/index.php/cyber-attacks-timeline-graphic-of-the-day/" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Thomson Reuters</a> post, showing the timeline of the major 2011 CyberAttacks.</p><p style="max-width:100%"><ins style="max-width:100%"><ins style="max-width:100%"></ins></ins></p><p style="max-width:100%">The graph shows all the main Cyber Events of this tremendous 2011 up to June, the 16th. Actually to be perfect it should include also the infamous <a href="http://www.epsilon.com/News%20&%20Events/Press_Releases_2011/Epsilon_Notifies_Clients_of_Unauthorized_Entry_into_Email_System/p1057-l3" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Epsilon Data Breach</a>, happened on March, the 30th. Probably it had a major impact on the U.S. rather than in Europe, but it is clear that the aftermaths of this breach will last for years in terms of spear-phishing attacks tarteting the affected users.</p><p style="max-width:100%">Moreover, to be "ultra perfect", it shpould also include the other attacks discovered against U.S. Defense Contractors (<a href="http://paulsparrows.wordpress.com/2011/05/31/insecureid/" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">L-3</a> on April, the 6th, and <a href="http://paulsparrows.wordpress.com/2011/06/02/another-breach-in-the-wall/" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Northrop Grumman</a> on May, the 26th) should be considered as well.</p><p style="max-width:100%">Even if some attacks are missing, the graph is useful (and meaningful) to show the easiness with which our data are at risk.</p><p style="max-width:100%">Of course after June, the 16th, another cyber-attack leading to a breach was perpetrated against Sega (to be added to the list of Game Publisher), affecting 1.3 million users.</p><p style="max-width:100%">Following the Sega Breach, in these last two days, after the #Antisec <a href="http://pastebin.com/9KyA0E5v" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Manifesto</a> and the consequent teaming between LulzSec and Anonymous, several government sites have been hit by massive DDoS attacks, including <a href="http://www.soca.gov.uk/" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">SOCA</a> in UK, some sites affiliated to PM Silvio Berlusconi in Italy, and some <a href="http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/technology-13878888" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Government Sites in Brazil</a>.</p><h6 class="clear" style="font-size:1em;margin:1em 0px;max-width:100%;clear:both">Related articles</h6><ul style="max-width:100%"><li style="max-width:100%"><a href="http://www.shoppingblog.com/blog/619112" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Sega Hit With Cyber Attack</a> (<a href="http://shoppingblog.com">shoppingblog.com</a>)</li><li style="max-width:100%"><a href="http://paulsparrows.wordpress.com/2011/06/02/another-breach-in-the-wall/" style="color:rgb(65,110,210);max-width:100%">Another Breach In The Wall</a> (<a href="http://paulsparrows.wordpress.com">paulsparrows.wordpress.com</a>)</li></ul></div></div></div><div id="AppleMailSignature" style="font-family:UICTFontTextStyleBody;font-size:23px">Via @twitter </div><div id="AppleMailSignature" style="font-family:UICTFontTextStyleBody;font-size:23px"><br></div><div id="AppleMailSignature" style="font-family:UICTFontTextStyleBody;font-size:23px"><span style="background-color:rgba(255,255,255,0)"><a href="http://www.hackmageddon.com/2011/06/22/2011-cyberattacks-timeline/">http://www.hackmageddon.com/2011/06/22/2011-cyberattacks-timeline/</a><br></span><br>^ed </div></div><div dir="ltr">-- <br></div><div data-smartmail="gmail_signature">/ed70</div> Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-23897170003500134122016-03-30T01:58:00.001-05:002016-03-30T01:58:59.405-05:00Why Everyone Is Getting Hacked These Days<div><div class="original-url"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><b><i>Why Everyone Is Getting Hacked These Days</i></b></span></div><div id="article" role="article" style="text-rendering: optimizelegibility;"><div class="page" style="word-wrap: break-word; max-width: 100%;"><p style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">If it feels like there have been a lot of password hacks this year, it's because there have been more than usual, and <a href="http://arstechnica.com/security/2012/08/passwords-under-assault/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">Ars Technica's Dan Goodin</a> explains why that is. In short: Password hacking has gotten better, while our password making has gotten worse. "The result: security provided by the average password in 2012 has never been weaker," Goodin writes, which is why it shouldn't surprise you that this year we have heard about security breaches at <a href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=1&cad=rja&ved=0CFsQFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.theatlanticwire.com%2Ftechnology%2F2012%2F06%2Fblip-linkedins-pretty-good-record%2F53214%2F&ei=PKEzUIbOD8iB0QHvzICwBA&usg=AFQjCNFIeAQ0PCPZ7xuv750tOvjDFvVFvw&sig2=9pTA779eK8R-8-FUZg328Q" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">LinkedIn</a>, <a href="http://www.theatlanticwire.com/national/2012/06/eharmony-also-had-some-passwords-stolen/53255/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">eHarmony</a>, <a href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=3&cad=rja&ved=0CF8QFjAC&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.theatlanticwire.com%2Ftechnology%2F2012%2F07%2Fsometimes-its-smart-use-dumb-passwords%2F54499%2F&ei=SqEzUMu-H4Wt0AHJg4GAAw&usg=AFQjCNHYPbrULT4J6cMgnQKLlzcrlyLq_A&sig2=gLqr6NqfkGN-TYwAXyx8oQ" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">Yahoo Voices</a>, and a personal horror story from <a href="http://www.theatlanticwire.com/technology/2012/08/what-getting-hacked-feels/55414/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;"><em style="max-width: 100%;">Wired</em>'s Mat Honan</a>. Last year, James Fallows told us about his wife's security situation in <a href="http://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2011/11/hacked/308673/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;"><em style="max-width: 100%;">The Atlantic</em></a> story called "Hacked!" And for all the high profile accounts, there are all the ones we don't hear about. It's happening a lot these days.</span></p><p style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But why the sudden uptick? Goodin explains:</span></p><ul style="max-width: 100%;"><li style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><strong style="max-width: 100%;">Our password habits have gotten worse. </strong>"The average Web user maintains 25 separate accounts but uses just 6.5 passwords to protect them, according to a <a href="https://research.microsoft.com/pubs/74164/www2007.pdf" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">landmark study (PDF)</a> from 2007," he writes. We have more things for which we need to create codes and it takes far too much brain space to store 25 different combos. Having the same passwords for various accounts was what did Fallows' wife in. Plus, the passwords we pick are stupid, as we learned from the <a href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=3&cad=rja&ved=0CF4QFjAC&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.theatlanticwire.com%2Ftechnology%2F2012%2F07%2Fsometimes-its-smart-use-dumb-passwords%2F54499%2F&ei=j6YzUJGEEs-y0QHso4FQ&usg=AFQjCNHYPbrULT4J6cMgnQKLlzcrlyLq_A&sig2=nI8BfqdidDNdUjZgcF_NOw" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">Yahoo Voices</a> hack, in which "123456" was (still!) a popular choice. It takes <a href="http://i-sight.com/corporate-security/cracking-the-code-on-password-protection/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">10 minutes</a> to crack a lower case 6 character password. To avoid this possible issue, <a href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=3&cad=rja&ved=0CF4QFjAC&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.theatlanticwire.com%2Ftechnology%2F2012%2F07%2Fsometimes-its-smart-use-dumb-passwords%2F54499%2F&ei=j6YzUJGEEs-y0QHso4FQ&usg=AFQjCNHYPbrULT4J6cMgnQKLlzcrlyLq_A&sig2=nI8BfqdidDNdUjZgcF_NOw" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">we have before suggested</a> picking dumb passwords for sites that don't matter. </span></li><li style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><strong style="max-width: 100%;">Password cracking has gotten better. </strong>"Now used increasingly for computing, graphics processors allow password-cracking programs to work thousands of times faster than they did just a decade ago on similarly priced PCs that used traditional CPUs alone," adds Goodin, who details the various tech advancements in hacking. The LinkedIn breach <a href="http://www.theatlanticwire.com/technology/2012/06/end-password-we-know-it/53269/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">taught us</a> this, leading us to the conclusion that perhaps we need to accept that the modern password isn't good enough anymore. </span></li><li style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><strong style="max-width: 100%;">There is a hacking network effect. </strong>With each hacker password revelation, future thieves learn more about the way the aggregate thinks. "The ever-growing list of leaked passwords allows programmers to write rules that make cracking algorithms faster and more accurate; password attacks have become cut-and-paste exercises that even script kiddies can perform with ease," explains Goodin. For one, it proves people still use "123456" and "password," even after being told lots of time to use better, different passwords. How many of you have started using <a href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=1&cad=rja&ved=0CF8QFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.slate.com%2Farticles%2Ftechnology%2Ftechnology%2F2011%2F02%2Fwhy_passwords_arent_enough.html&ei=zakzUN_9FIfj0QHb9oDABQ&usg=AFQjCNHIVALYKjr7mRJbJZtcYIdvw18VXQ&sig2=IRzkUKodiBJa2SGcnNCRpA" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">Gmail's two-tiered authentication</a>? </span></li><li style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><strong style="max-width: 100%;">Sites have gotten worse at protecting us. </strong>Again, a lesson we learned from <a href="http://www.theatlanticwire.com/technology/2012/06/end-password-we-know-it/53269/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">LinkedIn</a>, in which the company admitted its protective measures weren't good enough. <a href="http://www.theatlanticwire.com/technology/2012/08/what-getting-hacked-feels/55414/" style="text-decoration: none; max-width: 100%;">Honan blamed Apple and Amazon</a> for his hack, too. The bulk of Goodin's post goes into the technical specifics of this dangerous state of affairs. Many websites for example don't have enough ""cryptographic 'salt' to passwords to render such attacks infeasible." "To the detriment of millions of Internet users, going without salt is only one of the many sins that popular websites routinely commit against password security," he writes. </span></li></ul><p style="max-width: 100%;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Reading Goodin's take confirms to us that we have reached the end of the password as we know it. But what to do now? One could hope that technology fixes everything. Or maybe we should start thinking about the kind of stuff we put on the Internet and how we protect it. </span></p></div></div></div><div id="AppleMailSignature"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><br>^ed </span><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Sent via iPhone</span></div></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-16236213500872947952015-09-08T16:45:00.001-05:002015-09-08T16:45:21.775-05:00Disney Mind Control Program<h1>
</h1><h1>A Look Into Disney Trauma Based Mind Control Program</h1>
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<div>Alrighty, I'm going to make a stab at covering the VAST topic of Disney's Mind Control Program, Subliminal Messages for Mind Control, propaganda and how they operate.
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<p>This article is meant to be a simplistic overview of trauma based mind control as has been employed in the MK-Ultra Monarch Programming method. It is important to understand the foundation of how and why this type of mind control works, with respect to trauma, dissociation and subsequent programming.</p>
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<p>This system of mind control has its origins in Illuminati based black magic practices. Multigenerational Satanic cults and high level Illuminati members have employed mind control for centuries. The basics of this type of mind control slavery was optimized and expanded after World War 2 following the gruesome experiments conducted in the Nazi concentration camps. Dr. Joseph Mengele, (aka, Dr. Green) disappeared from Auschwitz in January of 1945, and was smuggled into the US by the Illuminati.</p>
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<p>When Monarch Programming started, the top men were Illuminati. Originally Mengele was the lead Programmer and became skilled in many things including Cabalistic Magic, abortions, torture and programming children. When Mengele came over to he US, the existing mind control programming jumped from being an occult science, to one that had full access to the Medical, Psychiatric, Judicial, Scientific and Governmental sectors via the power of the National Security Act and the Intelligence Agencies. According to Fritz Springmeyer, author of "The Illuminati Formula Used to Create an Undetectable Mind Controlled Slave", the Illuminati created the CIA. Intelligence agencies such as Britain’s MI-6 began investigating these mind control techniques early on even in World War 1.</p>
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<p>These were most likely the early multiple personality Manchurian candidate types of agents. The Illuminati’s programming of multiple personality agents through trauma, ritual abuse, and hypno-programming was simplistic compared to the sophisticated techniques engineered by the Nazi Germans and even today. Secret mind control experimentation continued after WW2 in the US and also Canada under the CIA’s, Project Paperclip.</p>
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<p>The primary MK-Ultra project adapted from these early systems was the Monarch Program. The reason why I think this system is important is because it is the original programming used to lay the groundwork for future more sophisticated mind control systems. The main factors for success in Monarch programming is the genetic tendency for dissociation, high intelligence and creativity. It was discovered years ago, by the Illuminati that dissociative ability was passed on from generation to generation. The children of multigenerational abuse are good at dissociation. These genetic qualities have been fine tuned and specific bloodlines; both Illuminati and non-Illuminati are closely monitored, so that most Monarch slaves are even chosen before birth. Genealogical records of Illuminati bloodlines are highly guarded secrets, but in general these consist of 13 major families which include the Royal bloodlines of Europe.</p>
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<p>The reason why dissociation is important to mind control is because the human mind is more susceptible to hypnotic command in these trance states. Dissociation is also a survival skill of great value in response to trauma and abuse. Frequent traumas, which split the mind of a child before the age of six, will produce multiple personality states. This is also known as dissociative identity disorder. This is one reason why the programming must be done in early childhood and in some cases, infancy and in utero. It is known that trauma based personality splits remain isolated in the mind better than hypnotic based mind splits.</p>
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<p>Once the victim is systematically traumatized through various methods, which may include ritual abuse, programming is anchored in to each individual trauma. These dissociated traumas are linked to hypnotic programming commands and scripts. Then the traumatic memories linked in with the programming are walled off with amnesia from the host personality. The traumatized "split" is also known as the newly created alter personality. Alter personalities are created according to the Programmers needs, while the host personality is unaware of the traumatic memories and alters who hold the memories. The alter personality can be called up to the front of the mind via codes or specific cues that the programmer knows, and be trained to do a variety of functions.</p>
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<p>All programming is anchored upon some type of trauma. A variety of scripts may be used, along with specific training for individual alter personalities. This extends into the childhood and adulthood of the slave. The idea behind this is to create the perfect slave who can carry out a variety of functions while maintaining secrecy and obedience to the programmers. Such functions may include assassination, espionage, sexual servicing, couriers, "photographic "mind file data storage, and even psychic abilities. There are other important elements employed in Monarch mind control such as the overlaying of demonic entities through ritual, or the power of ancestral generational spirits, which may make the person very psychic. Many of the Monarch victims are chosen because they have a powerful level of generational spirits within their families, who may have practiced black magic for generations.</p>
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<p>Nowadays, sophisticated scientific technology is also used, such as biochip implants, electroshock, drugs and brain wave entrainment systems to lock in hypno programming more effectively. Real physical trauma is sometimes substituted for virtual reality headgear, which simulate horrific traumas to quickly split the mind, priming it for programming. The important thing to remember is that the powerhouse behind this type of mind control system is demonic and technical. The key to freedom lies in deliverance and specific deprogramming therapy and support systems.</p>
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<p><strong>"Movies can and do have tremendous influence in shaping young lives in the realm of entertainment towards the ideals and objectives of normal adulthood." Walt Disney.</strong></p>
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<p>The F.B.I. under Hoover began talks with Walt Disney beginning from 1936 and continue until his death in 1966. The Disney FBI file reveals a complex relationship between these two Cold War actors but is also informative of the process of cultural production taking place during the Cold War and how content becomes a plane upon which a struggle between competing visions of purpose is enacted</p>
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<p>Disney was hired during WW2 to provide cartoons and other images for use of propaganda for the US government:</p>
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<p>MGM even got in on the action:</p>
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<p>Disney has went on to take this very same manipulation through imagery and subtle messages to influence kids even today. Even with seemingly innocent movies such as the Little Mermaid, you even get that same "mind control" mentality. Look at the overall plot to the movie......a little mermaid "sells her soul" which is symbolized as her voice in order to fall in love with the wealthy prince.</p>
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<p>TONS of symbolism here from an esoteric standpoint as well as a symbolic standpoint.</p>
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<p>You have the trauma victim "selling their soul" to achieve something they want(in this case love) but in order to get what they wish to have......it must be kept a secret which is symbolic of "stealing the voice". That voice now belongs to the person who controls them. As you can see, the Sea Witch in the movie even sings her little song about it:</p>
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<p>Poor unfortunate souls indeed.</p>
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<p>Here they are even telling you of how they operate. These poor unfortunate souls do get caught up in this labyrinth of manipulation and trauma.....for them, escape is damn near impossible.</p>
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<p>This leads me to my next section, which are some of the prime examples of the mind control subjects:</p>
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<p>One common thing that you will see with many of the people associated with Disney's Mind Control program is The Mickey Mouse Club. Britney did happen to be a member. One interesting thing that I did notice is that she tried out once and was told that she was "too young" so they sent her to one of their agents who then sent her to a "School for Performing Arts". After she left this school, she was quickly picked up by the Mickey Mouse Club.</p>
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<p>Looking at Britney's appearance, she had the classic "look" of many of the trauma subjects that have escaped from the inside such as Cathy O'Brien as well as others. Even my friend Haley fits the category of the "blonde hair, blue eyed" girl. This seems, for some reason or another, to be the type they like to look for. When Britney came out, she had that look. She had the "innocent school girl" look and her songs told quite a story as well.</p>
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<p>Now, another thing that is quite common in mind control programs is for the programming to start breaking down around age 30 or so. What we start seeing is this slow, breaking down of the person as all of this dark mess that has been bred into them begins to surface. For these people, this is all they know therefore they feel as if they have no one else to turn too. She ends up getting involved with Madonna through the Kabbalistic Society which, from a ritualistic standpoint, explains the "kiss" but that is another story. Please don't think that Madonna is innocent either as her symbolism tells otherwise:</p>
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<p>This leads to the classic mental breakdowns.</p>
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<p>One of the biggest was Britney shaving her head but people don't understand what was happening here. When she showed up, what color was her hair? It was brown...she has dyed it brown. This was already part of breaking the chain here with just this simple move. No more "blonde hair, blue eyed" girl as this darkness was starting to seep up through the cracks and she began manifesting it. The next step was to strip it all away which throughout the ages a symbolic gesture of rebirth was the shaving of the head.</p>
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<p>Once these alternate personalities begin to break down, you can even see the person begin to exhibit symptoms of them almost seeming to be on drugs. They won't know where they are, lose time and really seem to be talking out of their head.</p>
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<p>Look at this clip of Britney right after she shaved her head and listen at the very beginning to the girl who was in the beauty shop describe what Britney said as she was doing it:</p>
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<p><strong>"She says she's tired of having things plugged into her and doesn't want anyone to touch her"</strong></p>
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<p>Doesn't want things "plugged into her"?</p>
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<p>One common method of "altering" the mind that has been used for quite a while now is the "electo shock" method.</p>
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<p><a>Click Here For Info</a> --- Info on Electro Shock Torture</p>
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<p>We also see later her acting out violently which is another slow breakdown of the control. Notice that once they sent her back to the "hospital", which ironically was the Ronald Reagan Medical Center in the psyche ward, and she was treated. I say "ironically" because Reagan was a mind controlled puppet as well.</p>
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<p>Even in current form, we can see how this girl has slowly fallen down the ladder the older she gets. One thing that you tend to see with all of these stars is the Mickey Mouse Club being in common. If it was just one or two different people in high ranking entertainment areas doing this, it would be one thing but it's a ton of different people.</p>
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<p>You can see the same patterns with her as with Britney:</p>
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<p>You see the same hair that she dyed that blonde color along with the blue eyes. Notice that the hair didn't manifest until she began to work with the music industry which I find kind of strange. As we can see, she gets older and these "alts" start breaking down. This is why she has turned to drugs, drinking and other things in order to cope with all that is going on.</p>
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<p>This is what she gets reduced too:</p>
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<p>Here we have another alumni of the Mickey Mouse Club. With her, she doesn't seem to be manifesting any breaking of the programming but rather just seems to be feeding off of it. Again, she has a very similar look to all the others:</p>
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<p>Just as with Lady Gaga, among other celebrities, you see her symbolism with the Illuminati "eye":</p>
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<p>Don't forget about her new album pushing the "Transhumanism" for the NWO where man and machine become one:</p>
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<p>She even shared, a much less public version for some reason, the SAME kiss from Madonna:</p>
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<p>What would a write up about Disney mind control be without talking about Miley Cyrus. As it stands, there isn't a whole lot of evidence physically that can be seen with Miley HOWEVER symbolically tells a different story. First we have to look at how they got this girl to where she is. On her show, "Hannah Montana", she was telling another story. She was an average girl, who put on a "disguise" to become a different person. Ironically enough, that disguise was a blonde wig....hmmmm, haven't we seen that before?</p>
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<p>With this disguise, she fools all of her friends into thinking she is a different person.....this is virtually the little mermaid story all over again with a spin. Now, the first thing that alerted me to Miley was her symbol:</p>
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<p>So what are we looking at? The Monarch Butterfly is what we are looking at with different colors. How does this relate? Project Monarch, as you would have read above in the first article, is one of THE LARGEST mind control operations in the world! This is their symbol, people!</p>
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<p><strong>Click Here for Info</strong></p>
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<p>To me, this speaks volumes!</p>
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<p>Even the name...."Cyrus". Anything similar to "Osiris" possibly? Maybe it's just a coincidence but who knows. Typically, nothing is coincidence for these people.</p>
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<p>Now let's take a look at her video:</p>
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<p>First thing you see if the "dark angel" motif. You can see her caged up here with all of these "elitest" staring at her. Throughout the song she is telling people that she cannot be changed, cannot be tamed nor can she be saved.....WOW, poor unfortunate souls indeed.</p>
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<p>In another symbolic gesture, you can see that as long as she is in the cage.....she has her wings however once she steps outside that cage, the wings no longer exist. To me, this speaks volumes as well. As long as she stays in the cage her creators have built for her, she can stay on top but as soon as she attempts to leave...forget about it. Another interesting thing to me is that it appears that her staying in the cage is a willing move as the bars are plenty wide enough for her to escape as she shows. However, she stays in this cage under her own free will. That, again, speaks volumes.</p>
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<p>What's important for people to understand also is that this person is being presented as some kind of "Teen Idol" which kids should look up too. After she received the award for being the "most influencial teen role model" she pulled out this video:</p>
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<p>Maybe it's just me but pole dancing, grinding and crotch grabbing doesn't seem like the proper message for a "teen role model". I look for her to start falling at the seams pretty soon but it won't happen for another few years but if the pattern progresses; she will end up like the rest.</p>
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<p>This is another one that is falling apart at the seams. I'm not going to get into her too much but trust me, I'm sure that most people know that this one has already been "exposed" on the net.</p>
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<p>The same can be said for guys like Justin Timberlake, also a Mickey Mouse Club alumni, and that girl from the Cheetah Girls who recently put nude pics on the net.</p>
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<p>For me, I just can't call this a coincidence because there are just so many different cases and virtually all of them end up following the same pattern.</p>
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<p>There are numerous stories too of children disappearing at Disney World as well. As far as reliable facts, this cannot be confirmed however I can point to an article where this issue is discussed:</p>
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<p><strong>Click Here for Story</strong></p>
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<p>One thing that people don't speak of often is the Underground Tunnel Complex that is at Disney World. I have heard numerous reports from people who have actually been in these tunnels before and say that it's huge!</p>
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<p>Here is some info:</p>
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<p><strong>Click Here for Info</strong></p>
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<p><a>Click Here for Info</a> --- More Info on the Underground Tunnel Complex</p>
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<p>Maybe there is more to this than just "delivering supplies" or who know what those supplies are. Again here, I am speculating however it's safe to say that Disney has some pretty dark history and some of the biggest names in show business that end up falling down the "rabbit hole" have their beginnings there.</p>
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<p>Speaking of "down the rabbit hole", The Alice in Wonderland movie was said to be a symbolic tale of the brainwashing process. It is supposedly based off the idea of what is called the "Alice in Wonderland Confusion Technique" as I've heard it termed. It goes as follows:</p>
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<p>Most so-called hypnotic or "confusion techniques" are designed to compel a listener to pay close, intense attention to someone who is speaking or presenting them information. In many situations, these techniques are designed to brainwash a subject, or at least make strong suggestions to them that will linger in their mind afterwards.</p>
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<p>On the most basic level, using confusion and confusing language to get someone to pay attention to you is obvious. When you're listening to someone speak, and they appear to be making sense, but you are unable to follow the logic of their statements, you will pay closer attention. The "Alice in Wonderland" confusion technique merely takes this same principle to a more extreme level.</p>
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<p>Essentially, the Alice in Wonderland technique uses confusion to replace a subject's accepted ideas about the world with false or nonsensical ones, much as the character of Alice is confronted by surreal or illogical goings-on once she makes the trip to Wonderland.</p>
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<p>Typically, the technique involves two interrogators. The first poses a question to a subject that appears to be straightforward, but is on some level nonsensical and impossible to answer correctly. The second interrogator then interrupts with an unrelated and also impossible-to-answer question.</p>
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<p>Questions continue to be asked in this manner, overlapping one another, for hours, days or even weeks...as long as it takes to thoroughly convince the subject that their situation has become illogical and to break down his or her resistance.</p>
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<p>At this point, a person who previously was unwilling to accept a thesis that contradicted his or her worldview will become more open to suggestions or new ideas. They will accept that they will not be able to escape their situation through rational means, and will embrace irrationality as a means of escape.</p>
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<p>Obviously, this technique is primarily useful for something like an interrogation, when the interviewers want to get information out of a subject, or with brainwashing, as one would find in a cult atmosphere. It has been suggested that the technique is employed in the Church of Scientology, but I could find no evidence online that this was actually true or false</p>
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<p>This just falls into line with a whole line of different movies by Disney to accomplish mind altering ideas. One thing that people miss out on with their catching of Disney movies is Disney's OTHER movie company for adults called "Touchstone". Disney wanted to cover the adult market however they also wanted to keep their "kiddie" look as well so they just created a new movie company for cover. Once again, this is just the cameleon changing it's colors to mask it's intent.</p>
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<p>Cathy O'Brien is one of the government slaves that ended up making it out of the sex slave trade. Here you can listen to some of her stories and things she experienced:</p>
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<p><strong>Click Here for Info</strong> --- Information on Cathy O-Brien's Story</p>
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<p>Bill Clinton even shows evidence of this:</p>
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<p>Here he admits being "sorry" for all the mind control experiments even though they still go on:</p>
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If anyone has anything else to add from an esoteric standpoint, ritual or magical aspect.....please feel free to add.</p>
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<p>Thanks for reading,</p>
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<p><strong>Minority of One</strong></p>
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<p>Original Page: <a href="http://theminorityreport.forummotion.com/t199-a-look-into-disney-trauma-based-mind-control-program">http://theminorityreport.forummotion.com/t199-a-look-into-disney-trauma-based-mind-control-program</a></p>
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<p><br></p>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-25403362735461819212014-06-10T11:30:00.001-05:002015-09-29T19:04:01.327-05:00Unwritten: A Day in the Life<div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Let's face it... my job pretty much sucks: </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">The very nature of being a crisis counselor, therapist, casemanager or any other kind of mental health professional requires that I respond with professionalism to kids who have </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">been abused and basically fucked over for years; first by their families, and then by a system that fails to protect them. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I get calls in the middle of the night from children, adolescents, and even my friends who are in vaiying stages of crises— some are suicidal psychotic, angry, and pretty much just all kinds of fucked up. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">But today, TODAY!!!! </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Today, a child rolled up her sleeves to show me that her set finflicted wounds (cutting) were beginning to heal. She threw out her last razor blade from her hidden collection the night </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">before. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Today, I won a small battle. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Today, I saw a life change and the healing begin, Not just for her, but for aii of us. Today, I won a small battle. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">As one of my former clients told me, what I do is important— because even though I may not change hundreds or thousands of lives every day of my fife, I make a difference one life at a time. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">At the time, I couldn't: stop the tears from my eyes now I can't stop the warm feeling that has taken hold of my body and me same instead of the tears.</div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "> </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I am so very proud of you. </div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; text-align: left; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Elyssa D. Durant, Ed.M.</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-74967795124856149352013-12-23T07:39:00.001-06:002013-12-23T07:54:07.479-06:00Last Writes: My Last Correspondence With Ned Vizzini, RIP Ned<div style="font-family: Helvetica; font-size: medium; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><div><b>Unwritten: My Last Correspondence With Ned Vizzini</b></div><div><br></div><div><div><img src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-xIyV654D3_U/UrhAfCY5Y4I/AAAAAAAAJnY/kxZBvCVmn2A/I/photo_720551.jpg" border="0" class="bloggoimg"></div><br><br> <br></div><div>From: “Ned Vizzini"</div><div>Hey, sounds like me! I’m headed towards ruin quick. Hope all is well</div><div><br></div><div>-------------- Original message ---------</div><div><br></div><div>From: “Ned Vizzini"</div><div><br></div><div>I’m not good, Elyssa. Very depressed. I was such a different person when I knew you. But maybe I will be different soon. </div><div><br></div><div>-------------------------</div><div><br></div><div>From "Elyssa D:</div><div><br></div><div>god ned-- I wish we could talk—based upon what I’ve read (what you’ve posted on line and through your interviews) it seems as though you are going through all the emotions and emotional chaos that I was experiencing the first year we met back in New York.</div><div><br></div><div>Another friend of mine just checked himself into a psych ward after a suicide attempt and I feel so helpless because I care and respect you both so much.</div><div><br></div><div>it is funny because I always thought that if I could just finish that damn book I was working on ten years ago—or just finished law school, my PhD. or any number of things—everything would be okay.</div><div><br></div><div>It confuses me because you finished your book—rob finished law school- I finished nothing.</div><div><br></div><div>A few weeks ago, I “lost my shit” so to speak, came across your interview, and was completely blown away—I used to be the crazy one—now I have my sanity back but nothing else.</div><div><br></div><div>having been through several crises myself, I came to believe that when you see someone in crisis, they become so overwhelmed and confused that they do not know what to do first—and how to dig out of the hole they have dug for themselves. I decided that rather than asking, I just try to figure it out and give it to them, no questions asked, no thank you necessary.</div><div><br></div><div>How many people have told you, “Call if you there is anything I can do” and when you do call—nothing! Nothing but disappointment and regret. So I have decide never to ask somebody what they need—</div><div><br></div><div>Mostly because they don’t even know themselves— hen I came to the realization a few weeks ago that my transient existence is so tangential that no one would notice if I never took another breath—I tried to figure out what I needed so that I could give it to myself.</div><div> </div><div>so I started going back through my old journals to see if I could identify the missing element of my life—you know that “thing” that would both make it all go away and make all come together so I could be a whole person again.</div><div> </div><div>That thing is a figment of my imagination. I used to think it was being loved by a man—I had that. That wasn't it.</div><div> </div><div>Then I thought it was having money. I had that. But that wasn’t it either.</div><div> </div><div>Then I thought it was health insurance—but no, that was not it either.</div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Then I thought it would be having that oh-so-critical Ivy League degree. I have that. That still wasn't it. </div><div> </div><div>So obviously, none of those things could have been “it.”</div><div> </div><div>The thing I need most, I lost long ago, and that was hope. Perhaps I never really had it at all.</div><div><br></div><div>So I guess some things just can’t be bought, learned, earned, or acquired. </div><div> </div><div>I think of the long twisted road, and I remember one of my favorite childhood movies, where a girl named Dorothy was so determined to find her way home after a great storm. Disillusioned and distracted, Dorothy would not yield to the many obstacles that had been placed in her way. Determined to meet the great Wizard, she stayed one path. </div><div> </div><div>Yes, there were detours, obstacles, and the Wicked Witch of the West. Each of these obstacles may have taken her of course, yet she never once lost sight of the road home. She believed in one thing, the Wizard, and his ability to bring her home. </div><div><br></div><div>Having great faith and determination, she never strayed far off the path to righteousness. Dorothy had a clearly defined goal, a means to get there, and a bright yellow brick road to guide her. Through her determination and unyielding faith, Dorothy never once doubted that she was on the right path. </div><div> </div><div>In the Wizard of Oz, the yellow brick road may have been the path she was taking, but through her determination and blind faith, she was able to bring others onto the road t enlightenment.</div><div> </div><div>The lion found his courage; the tin man got a heart. The scarecrow got some brains—and even Dorothy got what she needed most. </div><div> </div><div>Dorothy began her journey looking for one thing. She needed to get back to place she began, and find her way home. Dorothy teaches us a valuable lesson, but she was lucky enough to know what it was she so desperately longed for... home.</div><div> </div><div>If all I had to do was click my heals three times and find my way home, well, sadly I would not even know where home is. Yes, they say home is where the heart is, and perhaps that is part of the problem. But for some of us, out childhood homes were not places of happiness and nostalgia. They are places from which we run, searching endlessly for that magical place and can only hope that we have come across a road that is clearly marked to guide us in our destination. </div><div> </div><div>Of course, we know there will be that take us off course, and it will up to us to find our way back. Unfortunately, there is a certain point when we lose our direction and we lose our faith. As I grew older, I came to realize recognize that my feeling of detachment went far beyond having a dysfunctional childhood a broken family life that even my sister and I never lived in the same house for more than a year or so in the summertime.</div><div><br></div><div>So no matter how long I have been in Nashville, in many ways I am, in fact still a stranger. I am a stranger because homeless is a state of mind. </div><div> </div><div>In my mind, I like to think a home is a place of acceptance, shelter, and a place you can find forgiveness, comfort and recognition. For most, going home means to reconnect in a way so that you are reminded that you have something, someone, who will always have your back. </div><div> </div><div>Homer represents more than a structure; it represents a strong foundation that will always be there whenever you need to feel safety and comfort. For me safety is marked by the boundaries that are supposed to keep me safe and protected. </div><div> </div><div>So this is my home. I don’t necessarily feel safe here, but I do feel consistent. I do not have to worry that I will be forced to switch schools, neighbors or friends every six months just because my parents could not get it right. What they failed to realize is just how very wrong it really was. </div><div><br></div><div>Changing schools, changing friends, changing siblings; changing myself just enough each time so that I could fit in. But after 16 years of constant change, I never got the opportunity to find out anything real about myself. Even my name was changed when I moved--- dad called me Liz, and my mother called herself any number of last names as she desperately tried to hold on to her youth, her beauty, and delusional fantasies of entitlement and sacrifice that I think she may actually believe. </div><div><br></div><div>I have never had plastic surgery, could not afford it anyway, but what do have is a clear memory, vivid nightmares, and a place of my own. What I also realize, is that until I can live free from fear and dependence, I will never truly be able to know what it feels like to be at home. </div><div><br></div><div>If home is where the heart is, then homelessness is clearly just a state of mind. And today I have some hope that I might someday no longer feel just as homeless at home. So now I know more than ever, that homelessness is a far more than a concrete structure or family property. </div><div> </div><div>I will always feel a little homeless at home. It is knowing that you are the thing that remains constant—regardless of any dreams I may have, I will never have the constant I would need to get bring a child into this world--- as much I would like to. </div><div>I envy those who feel they have so much in their lives that they can trust without any reservation that the world is a loving enough place they want to share with a child. Especially a child of their own. </div><div><br></div><div>No, my mother told me long, long time ago, that I can never have children. She also told me last year, that I could not have a dog. My own mother does not think I am capable of raising a puppy. Maybe she’s right. She put her fears into action when she once donated my cat of 14 years to the animal shelter under someone else name so that I truly was left without any ties to the condo I stayed in for a few short months while I tried to come up with a plan to take him and myself far from a place where we could be safe and live free. </div><div><br></div><div>I adopted him back from the animal shelter 40 miles out after learning that she had used someone else’s name at the agency so I could not find him on my own.</div><div><br></div><div>I will not look elsewhere to find the essentials things healthy children receive that in turn makes them healthy adults. </div><div> </div><div>I will never be “healthy” but I do think I wish I could give more than what I have received. I regret never being the kind of “community member”, I think I could have been, and I doubt I will get over the sheer humiliation of having to love this way for so many years when I should have been doing so much more.</div><div> </div><div>In having truly been able to do the great things for society that I believe I could, but I can’t regret not giving no longer need constant reassurance, recognition, or validation, but I will always question whether things could have been different if only one person had taken the time to show me I was worth it. That I deserved more than what I could actually afford and realize that I do give so much in so many other ways. </div><div><br></div><div>The ways that people cannot calculate or see just how badly the ones who received them needed those gifts. It was the little things. It was Kody, it was Desiree, but above all else, it was me setting goals, the feelings of that my feeling I would never and was no longer subject to bi-annual custody disputes and shifts and us to realize that homelessness is merely a state of mind. </div><div><br></div><div>Where would I go? 10 years “down the road” and now, more than ever, I realize I am truly and deeply, “homeless at home.” </div><div> </div><div>You see it is not so much that I doubt myself, I just don’t trust that people will not do horrible things even if that means doing nothing at all. </div><div> </div><div>I do have much love to give. Actually too much. So much that it often pours out of me in inappropriate sentimentality. I know when I need to keep to myself, and I know when my anxieties starts to make others a little anxious. I know because as I see you react to me be anxious, it only makes me that much worse. It is one of my worst, but at times sometimes, that sensitivity is also at times a wonderful attribute and god given gift.</div><div><br></div><div>But should that prevent me from getting out into the world just because other people think I should be don’t like me … that’s not my job.</div><div> </div><div>I have spent more than half of my life in self-imposed isolation, and the other half wondering how I can be less annoying and high strung so others would want me around. The sad truth is, yes, I am annoying, but also, I am perceptive and very aware. Sometimes I do it purpose. </div><div> </div><div>I should not have to live in isolation because I have nervous tics or sometimes say the wrong thing. But regardless of what people seem to think about welfare recipients being lazy bums guess what—FUCK you right back. </div><div><br></div><div>For many years, I have kept chose to keep to myself just in case I really am so horrible to be around that even my own mother thinks I would be better off dead.</div><div> </div><div><blockquote type="cite"><b><i>Rest in Peace, Ned. You were loved. </i></b></blockquote><blockquote type="cite"><br></blockquote></div><div><br></div><div>Elyssa D. Dursnt, Ed.M. © 2008-2013</div><div><br></div><div><br></div></div><div style="font-family: Helvetica; font-size: medium; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><br></div><div style="font-family: Helvetica; font-size: medium; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><br></div><div style="font-family: Helvetica; font-size: medium; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">http://LastWritesRIP.blogspot.com</div><div style="font-family: Helvetica; font-size: medium; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><br></div><div style="font-family: Helvetica; font-size: medium; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><br></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-81784280630127915592013-10-24T09:17:00.000-05:002013-10-24T09:19:55.172-05:00Living With Autism: Why is It Different by Steve Borgman<div id="RIL_container" style="margin: 25px 20px 30px; padding: 0px; text-align: left; "><div id="RIL_header" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><h1 style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0.2em 0px 11px; padding: 0px 0px 0.4em; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-color: rgb(221, 221, 221); "><font face="Times" size="3"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Living With Autism: Why Is It Different?</span></font></h1><cite style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 25px; padding: 0px; position: relative; display: block; font-style: normal; "><span class="ril_byline_content" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font face="Times">by <a class="RIL_author" href="http://www.myaspergers.net/living-with-autism-why-is-it-different/" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; font-weight: bold; ">Stephen Borgman</a>, <a href="http://myaspergers.net/" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">myaspergers.net</a></font></span></cite></div><div id="RIL_body" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; clear: both; "><div id="RIL_less" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a id="dd_start" nodeindex="207" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; "></a></span></font><blockquote nodeindex="26" style="margin: 1.5em 19px; padding: 0px; "><p nodeindex="27" style="font-style: italic; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "></p><div id="RIL_IMG_1" class="RIL_IMG loaded " style="margin: 0px auto 0.8em; padding: 0px; position: relative; overflow: visible; text-align: center; visibility: visible; "><div class="ril_wrapper" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; width: 320px; display: inline-block; position: relative; float: right; right: 50%; height: 245px; "><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><i style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font face="Times"><br></font></i></div><a id="RIL_IMG_A_1" href="isril:IMG||1" class="noLinkStyle" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; font-style: italic; margin: 0px auto; padding: 0px; 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margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Dr. Gaus encourages you to see autism spectrum differences as both vulnerabilities and strengths.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="38" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">When our differences cause ongoing stress in many ares of life, you can feel helpless, focused on the negatives. However, in order to solve problems in your life, increasing your life satisfaction, you’ll need use a rational, objective approach.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="39" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><strong nodeindex="212" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font face="Times">Being objective, she suggests, means seeing your differences as both vulnerabilities <em nodeindex="213" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">and</em>strengths.</font></strong></p><p nodeindex="40" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Remember you have many human characteristics in common with other people. All people in the world live with problems and stress. And your life is not always filled with stress.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="41" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Furthermore, every person with autism has different challenges, since no two people on the spectrum are alike.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="42" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">There are four major categories of differences autism can produce in your life:</span></font></p><ul nodeindex="44" style="margin: 1.5em 0px 1.5em 2em; padding: 0px; "><li nodeindex="43" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 0.4em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">thinking differences</span></font></li><li nodeindex="45" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 0.4em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">social differences</span></font></li><li nodeindex="46" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 0.4em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">emotional differences</span></font></li><li nodeindex="47" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 0.4em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">sensory and movement differences</span></font></li></ul><p nodeindex="48" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">These differences can make you more vulnerable to the challenges and demands of daily life by taxing your “stress immune system.”</span></font></p><p nodeindex="49" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Why?</span></font></p><p nodeindex="50" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">First, autism spectrum differences your differences cause you to experience the world different from most people around you. As you experience life differently, you can interpret life differently and act differently than others, which can lead you to meet <strong nodeindex="214" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><em nodeindex="215" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">stressful events more often</em></strong> in your daily life than typical people.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="51" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Second, unless you deeply understand your differences, you may have <em nodeindex="216" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><strong nodeindex="217" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">fewer coping strategies</strong></em> available to you. Without coping strategies, you’re left unsure about how to handle many types of problems and demands life imposes on you.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="52" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For example, when family members make noises at your home, whether it’s singing, chewing loudly, or scraping chairs, you may experience sensory overload and stress without much time to recuperate.</span></font></p><h2 id="Thinking-Differences" nodeindex="53" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 1.7em 0px 0.7em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times" size="3"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Thinking Differences</span></font></h2><h3 id="Input-Processing-and-Output" nodeindex="54" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 1.7em 0px 0.5em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times" size="3"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Input, Processing, and Output</span></font></h3><p nodeindex="55" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Dr. Gaus uses the examples of finding your keys on the middle of your hallway floor at home to explain how human information processing works.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="56" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">During the <strong nodeindex="218" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">input</strong> stage, the brain receives input from sense organs (eyes, ears, nose, mouth, touch) and filters out irrelevant data; this is also called <strong nodeindex="219" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">perception.</strong></span></font></p><p nodeindex="57" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So as you walk into your hallways, and see the keys in the middle of the floor, your brain is able to filter out the wallpaper, floorbaords, or carpet; it chooses to focus on the keys, and not on those other items, so that the visual input of the keys is what gets through to the processing area of the brain.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="58" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">During <strong nodeindex="220" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">processin</strong>g, the brain analyzes the picture of the keys, comparing it to the pictures of other images stored in memory. From keys, to familiar keys, to my keys! Your brain then recognizes that the keys aren’t by the hook on the door, where they usually are, and makes a guess that you dropped them there by accident. Your brain may imagine that you’ll be frustrated looking for the keys on the hook in the future, so it makes a plan to pick up the keys and put them on the hook.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="59" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">During output, you make a decision based on the data from input and processing. You carry out the physical act of picking up the keys and putting them on the hook.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="60" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Here’s Dr. Gaus’ summary of the above:</span></font></p><blockquote nodeindex="61" style="margin: 1.5em 19px; padding: 0px; font-style: italic; "><p nodeindex="62" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The human brain is processing information all the time: this is called cognitive activity.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="63" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">New information goes through three stages: Input, Processing, and Output.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="64" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">When all the stages run smoothly, the output is some action that helps a person adapt successfully to a situation– sometimes called adaptive behavior.</span></font></p></blockquote><p nodeindex="65" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Dr. Gaus goes on to ask,</span></font></p><blockquote nodeindex="66" style="margin: 1.5em 19px; padding: 0px; font-style: italic; "><p nodeindex="67" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">What if your brain…did not filter out irrelevant information and you did not even notice the keys on the floor?…did not identify the object on the floor as your set of keys?…did not think ahead about the consequences of not having the keys by the door?…did not make the plan to put keys back by the door?…did not keep your attention on the plan long enough to have you carry out the plan of putting the keys back in their place?</span></font></p></blockquote><p nodeindex="68" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">These operations of input, processing, and output work differently for people on the autism spectrum at any given time. People on the autism spectrum tend to experience problems related to thinking differences in two categories: a) problems with<em nodeindex="221" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">management</em> of information and b) problems with <em nodeindex="222" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; ">interpretation</em> of information.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="69" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I’ll get into those specific categories in an upcoming post.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="70" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Aspie Writer (<a href="http://www.aspiewriter.com/" nodeindex="223" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">http://www.aspiewriter.com</a>) illustrates how autism differences can create stress and embarrassment in her post, <a href="http://aspiewriter.com/2013/02/adult-autism-is-embarrassing.html" target="_blank" nodeindex="224" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Adult Autism Is Embarrassing</a>. When you read her article, you’ll have a full understanding of how this all ties together.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="71" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span nodeindex="225" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><em nodeindex="226" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><strong nodeindex="227" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times">I hope you gained a better understanding of why living with autism is different. What’s your experience been?</font></strong></em></span></p><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;color: rgb(17, 17, 17); font-family: YogaAndroid, YogaLocal, Georgia, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><span nodeindex="225" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><em nodeindex="226" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><strong nodeindex="227" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><br></strong></em></span></div></div></div></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-62009560473038729992013-09-23T18:55:00.000-05:002013-09-23T18:55:11.965-05:00I'm think I'm being followed by a bot... Am I grandiose or paranoid?<a href="http://powersthatbeat.blogspot.com/2013/08/what-fuck-is-eff-bot.html">What the Fuck is an EFF-bot? </a> <br />
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I have to say that I think there have been several Twitterbots created just for me. Such as the @effbot or the @Swear_Bot and let is not forget the cute and lovable #twensored duck. </div>
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I could swear the effbot was so hot on my trail, that within 15 minutes of sneaking in a different hashtag to outsmart the effbot; it added that code as well (#EFF) and started hijacking those tweets as well. </div>
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Yes, I do believe I am being followed by a bot. Does that make me grandiose or paranoid?</div>
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So much so, that I in a couple of friends to test the Bot – to see just how much human supervision a Bot needs in order to function and evolve. </div>
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We learned very quickly that the effbot had somehow singled me out. I wrote the effbot a letter and asked him to give me the “F” word back, but the effbot did not reply. </div>
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I took it upon myself to say #EFF the #EFF'n effbot! </div>
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I don't know when the effbot was created (of course I am writing while the Twitter is down so I have no way of checking) but about three weeks ago I woke to find a whole bunch of tweets with the hashtag #EFF. </div>
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At first I assumed that it was just a polite way of sneaking in the word "fuck" into a tweet. So I used it everywhere. I would say #EFF you, or #EFF that. And before long people started asking what the #EFF does #EFF mean? </div>
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I got replies listing everything from “Early Follow Friday” to the “Electronic Foundation Frontier” So I spent about 48-72 hours trying to figure out what the #EFF is #EFF. </div>
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All this for an eff’n Bot? </div>
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You see at first the effbot only picked up tweets that used "eff" in sequence. For example, "I am so eff'n late for work" or, "Twitter really needs to fix the eff'n problem with @replies."</div>
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So my initial response was to hit retweet and I typed into my mini QWERTY keys on the TwackBerry and wrote, #EFF=FUCK.</div>
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Well this confused some people why was I saying the f-word in response to an innocent tweet. Well I don't remember anything about that tweet except that someone had asked "what is #EFF?" </div>
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Realizing that people were confused that I was assigning a "superlative" to a hashtag, I decided to go on a mission to uncover the significance of #EFF. </div>
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So I took it a step further, and responded with some = from the Spanish Inquisition: Forbidden Use of Carnal Knowledge.</div>
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Alternatively, from England where one (well, I suppose two) people had to get permission to engage in sexual relations; warranting a notice that read, "Fornication Under Consent of the King."</div>
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So I woke up one morning and saw one of my favorite twitterbuds latest tweet #EFF. Now bear in mind that I was brand new to twitter, had never heard the word hashtag and was determined to figure out what the damn EFFbot was. </div>
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It took me a while to figure it out, but I'll never forget the flood of eff'n tweets that got me through one of the darkest times of my entire life. </div>
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Bring on the EFF-bot. How I loved thee. </div>
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Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-90614427928797076612013-09-01T11:59:00.001-05:002013-09-01T11:59:59.872-05:00~ nomen est nomen ~<center><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>~ nomen est omen ~</font> </span></div><table border="0" align="CENTER"><tbody><tr><th bgcolor="#993300"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"> </span></th><th bgcolor="#993300"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"> </span></th><th bgcolor="#993300"><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/advanced.htm" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000"><img src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/stillpet.jpg" alt="Petit image" align="BOTTOM" width="118" height="68" border="0" vspace="0" hspace="0"></font></a></th><th bgcolor="#993300"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"> </span></th><th bgcolor="#FF0000"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Nomen est<br>omen</span></th></tr></tbody></table><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Version April 2005</span></div></center><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><a name="intron"></a></span><hr><center><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">IN RETE NOMEN EST OMEN</span></div><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">by fravia+ ~ text in fieri (I doubt I'll ever finish this section) </span></div><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">[<a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/nomomen.htm#lore">The lore of names</a>] ~ [<a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/nomomen.htm#querr">Names of the querries</a>] ~ [<a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/nomomen.htm#weapa">Names as weapons</a>] </span></div><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">[<a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/nomomen.htm#caravaggio">The Caravaggio example</a>] ~ [<a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/nomomen.htm#cut">A medievistic cut</a>]</span></div></center><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><br><a name="lore"></a></span><center><table border="1" width="88%"><tbody><tr><td bgcolor="#C6E7C6"><center><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The lore of names</span></center></td></tr></tbody></table></center><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">Nothing more than the web, in this new Millennium, underlines the old truth about</font><i>nomen est omen</i><font>. I could hardly find a more telling demonstration of the deep link between old-medieval sources research and today-web understanding (and researching).</font><br><br><font>Just to make a simple example: think at all the querelles about and around Internic, where people are buying and hoarding domainnames for vulgar commercial purposes: if I would have bought </font><font>Altdorf.com</font><font>, say, soon or later (probably not very soon, seen the slowness and incompetence shown in every web-related matter by all european local administrations :-) the swiss city of Altdorf would have to pay me in order to get it back. And that is exactly what has happened: if you check the following </font><a href="http://www.altdorf.com/">altdorf.com</a><font> link, you will see how some clown (in this case "ultimate search inc" in Hong Kong) has bought it with this hope. </font><br><br><font>Whanna make money? Buy all domainnames corresponding to the big cities of, say, Morocco and wait for that country to catch up on the web (which btw is happening more quickly than you would suppose).</font><br><br><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">Domainnames are cheap, and you could buy yourself a dozen every year just for fun.</font><br><font>People do that all the time, as you may check using </font><a href="http://www.netcraft.com/">netcraft</a><font> (which is useful also for other searching purposes, as explained elsewhere on searchlores). </font><br><br><font>Actually when you search for internic itself you'll immediately bump into the 'name' problem once again: dozens of commercial bastards have set up half-bogus internic sites, each one with a name slightly </font><font>similar</font><font> to internic, in order to cash easy money from all the zombies of this planet, unable to search and thus also unable to buy directly themselves their own domains from the real internic.</font><br><br><font>Here you can gaze in awe yourself, using the incredibly useful netcraft, at the high towers of names... discover how many people have already registered, say, altdorf.com</font><br></span><form name="f" method="get" action="http://searchdns.netcraft.com/"><table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="7"><tbody><tr><td colspan="2" align="center"><table border="0"><tbody><tr><td align="left"><small><strong style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Search:</strong></small></td><td align="right"><small><a href="http://searchdns.netcraft.com/?help=yes" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">search tips</a></small></td></tr><tr><td align="left" colspan="2"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><div id="hidethisdiv" style="display: inline; "><select name="restriction"> <option value="site contains">site contains </option><option value="site starts with">site starts with </option><option value="site ends with">site ends with </option><option value="subdomain matches">subdomain matches </option></select> </div><input type="text" name="host" value="searching" size="25" maxlength="80"><small><input type="submit" name="lookup" value="lookup!"></small></span></td><td align="center" colspan="2"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><small></small></span></td></tr><tr><td align="center" colspan="2"><small style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><b>Example:</b> site contains [<a target="_top" href="http://searchdns.netcraft.com/?restriction=site+contains&host=searching&lookup=lookup%21&position=limited">searching</a>] (a thousand sites eh!)</small></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></form><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><br><font><a name="querr"></a></font></span><center><table border="1" width="88%"><tbody><tr><td bgcolor="#C6E7C6"><center><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Names of the querries</span></center></td></tr></tbody></table></center><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">Think -moreover- at all the difficulties you will have, when searching, if you don't know the NAMES of the querries. Think reversely at how easy it is to find any application (for instance, say, softice) on the web, using search engines and/or the ftp-search servers, once you know (or imagine :-) THE EXACT NAMES the files or zippeed archives you are looking for have been stored into.</font><br><font>You'll often have to try it for yourself. You'll need to understand the 8.3 old dos convention. Try to access 'not found' pages, or pages you suppose should be there, alternating lower and uppercase (significant for Unix severs), or trying the suffixes *.htm, *.html, *.shtml. Try </font><font>jpg</font><font> and </font><font>gif</font><font> as suffixes for your target EXECUTABLES, try </font><font>doc</font><font>, </font><font>pdf</font><font> or </font><font>txt</font><font> as suffixes for your target PICTURES or mp3.</font><br><br><font>Many interesting approaches are listed on the </font><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/rabbits.htm">'rabbits'</a><font> section. </font><br><br><font>Do you actually know what all these formatnames REALLY mean? Did you ever have a look at the format of -say- a jpg image? Do it. Hexedit it.</font><br><br><font>A searcher MUST be able to recognize a gif or a jpg image looking at the code. </font><br><br><font>It is extremely important that you can </font><font>imagine</font><font> </font><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/synecdoc.htm">synecdochically</a><font> the NAMES of the targets you are searching! Note moreover that such names are a-changing all the time. This happens routinely for the names of the most interesting targets you may seek :-) </font><br><br><font>It is true that you can search for something even WITHOUT knowing it's exact name, but it is worth OVERESTIMATING the importance of names. <a name="caravaggio"></a></font><br><br><font>Compare the following searches (and try to understand why they work):</font></span><table><tbody><tr><td><ul><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=caravaggio2.htm&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">caravaggio2.htm</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=caravaggio2.jpg&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">caravaggio2.jpg</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=%22Boy+Peeling+a+Fruit%22&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">"Boy Peeling a Fruit"</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=Caravaggio+%22oil+on+canvas%22+%22private+collection%22&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">Caravaggio "oil on canvas" "private collection"</font></a></li><li><font color="#000000"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="http://www.alltheweb.com/search?cat=img&cs=iso-8859-1&q=caravaggio">caravaggio</a> (on fast images)</span></font></li><li><font color="#000000"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=%28caravaggio4.htm+OR+caravaggio4.html%29&btnG=Google+Search">(caravaggio4.htm OR caravaggio4.html)</a> <br>(Incidentally this search will not work on any other search engine)</span></font></li><li><font color="#000000"><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="http://www.kartoo.com/flash.php3?vis=1&langue=uk&ca=&l=&m=&fd=&bo=&tr=&version=4">caravaggio</a> (on kartoo, you'll have to input it yourself)</span></font></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=caravagio&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">caravagio</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=carravagio&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">carravagio</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?as_q=caravaggio+%2B%22index+%2Bof%2F%22&num=10&hl=en&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&btnG=Google+Search&as_epq=&as_oq=&as_eq=&lr=&as_ft=i&as_filetype=&as_qdr=all&as_occt=any&as_dt=i&as_sitesearch=&safe=images" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">caravaggio +"index +of/"</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&q=caravaggio+%22ragazzo+che+sbuccia%22&btnG=Google+Search" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">caravaggio "ragazzo che sbuccia"</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?as_q=%22le+Caravage%22&num=10&hl=en&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&btnG=Google+Search&as_epq=&as_oq=&as_eq=&lr=&as_ft=i&as_filetype=&as_qdr=all&as_occt=any&as_dt=i&as_sitesearch=&safe=images" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">le Caravage</font></a></li><li><a href="http://www.google.com/search?q=%22michelangelo+amerighi%22&hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&as_qdr=all&sa=n&oq=%22michelangelo+almerighi%22" style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">michelangelo amerighi</font></a></li></ul></td><td><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><img src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/ragazzo.jpg" alt="Petit image" align="BOTTOM" width="288" height="362" border="0" vspace="0" hspace="0"></span></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><br><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">It is impossible to overestimate the importance of names on the web. Let's take a simple example: the </font>robot.txt<font> file, that is used to tell search engines which directories and files they </font><font>should not</font><font> index on a specific site. Thus anything that has been put inside a 'robots.txt' file will not be found by your searchqueries. This file is just a list of names. And you can access this file easily, looking for it in the main directory of your target site, entering per hand the URL with the following pattern:</font><br>http://www.targetsite.com/robots.txt<br><font>Thus, once you have seen the names, you can type them directly into your browser in order to access the various 'non public' subdirectories and pages.</font></span><hr width="66%"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">Another classical 'nomen est omen' problem is encountered </font><font>when you search for programs</font><font>. Let's take Wdasm for instance as an example, this is a 'speedy' disassembler written by Peter Urbanik (hi Peter!) that has helped whole generations of both wannabie and capable crackers. This program anyway is not known to be on the net under the nameform "</font><font>wdasm</font><font>" and its stemmings (wdasm89, wdasm.zip wdasmdis.exe etcetera), yet you'll probably fish it (through ftp, local/regional fishing, deja or agoras) in its '</font><font>w32dsm</font><font>' nomenestomen incarnation... therefore anyone knowing this will be able to fetch this program, and those that don't know this wont be able to fetch it... it is as simple as that.</font><br><br><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">You begin to understand what I mean, don't you?</font><br><font>What I mean is that ANY program or game or image or sound is ALREADY somewhere on the web, you just need to know its name to fish it out.</font><br><br><font><a name="weapa"></a></font></span><center><table border="1" width="88%"><tbody><tr><td bgcolor="#C6E7C6"><center><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Names as weapons</span></center></td></tr></tbody></table></center><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">But names (well... words) are also powerful WEAPONS. </font><br><font>As the </font><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/realicra/realicra.htm">reality cracking</a><font> section of my site demonstrates, an interesting observation is that a correct use of TERMS when cracking reality, can help quite a lot (by the way: the very term 'reality cracking' is quite catchy </font><i>eo ipso</i><font>, should you have not noticed it... :-)</font><br><font>Rhetoric is a very neglected yet incredibly powerful science (these two aspects being most probably correlated :-)</font><br><font>Whomever reads (and heads) his "Lausberg" will soon be able to destroy anything in sight!</font><br><font>As an example let's take MacDonald. The experience demonstrates that simply explaining to the poor slaves how awful (and dangerous) is the food there, will not break the 'perceivness of coolness' that especially young zombies are frequently victim of. So what is necessary is to 'break', or to 'crack' their PERCEPTION, throwing against their teeths a 'truth revealing' phrase that will forever destroy the plastic wrappings i.e. the 'bounds' of their consumistic slavery.</font><br><br><font>This is extremely easy if -at times- you can build a powerful (and sharp) rhetorical statement.</font><br><br></span><table border="1" align="center"><tbody><tr align="center"><td align="center" bgcolor="#fefefe"><center><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"> Eating at MacDonald? That's 'reverse shitting' </span></center></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><font>I won't go here into the rethorical tricks hidden inside the phrase you have read. There is a </font><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/exegesis.htm">section of my site</a><font> that deals with this kind of tricks. Let us just state (and hope) that we will use always such tricks in order to 'illuminate' people for their own good (I repeat: let's hope it, who knows? Just cross your fingers and toes, trying to control feelings is always a very dangerous ave...)</font><br><br><font>Anyway: this is just a simple example: The real message is: you should never underestimate the amazing power of words! A capable linguist is as powerful (and as dangerous) as a capable advertisement 'creative' (these morons being evil dark forces whereas... us 'reversers'... being of course sons of the light :-)</font><br><br><font>Fact is, that few of those that have heard or read the above 'reverse shitting' definition will hencefort be able to feel once more - when eating a BigMac - their advertisement induced 'coolness'... See? Using a couple of well-chosen terms we have compensated (and destroyed) the power of their advertisement propaganda :-) </font><br><br><font><a name="cut"></a></font></span><center><table border="1" width="88%"><tbody><tr><td bgcolor="#C6E7C6"><center><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">A medievistic cut</span></center></td></tr></tbody></table></center><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br><font>You wish to understand more about this 'nomen_est_omen' stuff? Here a 'medievistic' yet rather useful 'cut' (if you follow the three hints below you are in for a long ride... see you back in a couple of years time :-)</font></span><ul><li><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">As a foretaste in english:<br>Gudmund Schuette's <i>Our forefathers</i> ('The Gothonic nations'), Cambridge, Unipress, 1933 (especially vol.II) read it and be prepared to gasp in awe.</span></li><li><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">to keep rolling (in German):<br>M.Schoenefeld, <i>Woerterbuch der altgermanischen Personen- und Voelkernamen</i>, Tilburg 1910, reprint Heidelberg 1965, his 'etymologischer index' is almost unsurpassed, note his assertion: "<i>Zu den unvollkommensten Erzeugnissen der Menschen gehoeren unstreitig die Woerterbuecher</i>"</span></li><li><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">dulcis in fundo:<br>Ernst Foerstermann, <i>Altdeutsches Namenbuch</i>, Bonn 1900, reprint Muenchen 1966, this is a book that IMHO anyone researching to-day web names-matters should carefully and seriously study in order to learn some metodology... Bienenfleissig was Foerstermann...</span></li></ul><hr width="66%"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><img align="left" valign="top" width="9" height="40" src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/dot_green.gif">Do not worry too much. This linguistic AND web-related problematic is quite relevant for all sort of searchers, yet there are different ways to 'countourn' (or even to solve) it. Reading the essays and lessons on my site you'll be again and again confronted with the old </font><i>nomen est omen</i><font> truth, and you'll find ways to avoid confronting it, paths that will go trough it and ways to harness its power for your own aims.</font></span><hr><center style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><i style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Far from being finished...</i></center><hr width="66%"><center><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/advanced.htm" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000"><img src="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/images/stillpet.jpg" alt="Petit image" align="BOTTOM" width="118" height="68" border="0" vspace="0" hspace="0"></font></a></div><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><table><tbody><tr><td width="300" height="2" bgcolor="#993300"></td></tr></tbody></table><font><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>(c) III Millennium: </font><font>[</font><a href="http://www.crazyboy.com/fravia/searchlores.org/info.htm">fravia+</a><font>]</font></span><font><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">, all rights reserv</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 16, 16); font-family: Times; font-size: large; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">ed</span></font></div></font></center>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-69006084523571639592013-08-27T16:20:00.000-05:002013-08-27T16:20:07.690-05:00UNWRITTEN: Dear Dad<div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">
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Dear Dad,</div>
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I apologize for not getting back to you sooner but I had to process my thoughts before responding. </div>
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Unfortunately, I had to withdraw from the course and defer admissions since I was about $950 short and was unable to borrow the money from Karen since she told me that she could not afford to lend me the money. </div>
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I was devastated and felt she was being dishonest with me since she just sold the condo my grandmother gave her for over $750,000. </div>
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It wasn't worth fighting over since we both know that it may have resulted in a drawn out battle like the one she had with her brother when Grandpa Al died. </div>
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I was in a deep depression when I saw the deed to the house since Karen promised that she would leave the property to Lauren and I to return the favor. Instead, she threw out all of our things and I collected photographs you had taken of us when we were little girls. </div>
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On a side note, she also wants us to reimburse her for the ObGyn bill when I was born! </div>
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I can't tell you how disappointed I am since I would only need one more class after that for my degree and I was really looking forward to a visit with you since it has been a while and I have some things I want to tell you. </div>
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I finally get it. </div>
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I just wish I could have "gotten it" earlier in life so I could have made better choices and decisions. </div>
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Now that I am growing older, I see a lot of myself in you. </div>
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I have always respected you. Your amazing focus, work ethic, and self discipline. </div>
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Hate to break it to you, but even though I don't have to, I actually kinda of like you!</div>
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I used to make fun of you for buying three pairs of the same jeans and cutting them at the ankles. </div>
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Guess what? I do it now too! I buy three of everything too because I have to come to value comfort more than fashion. </div>
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My ears are sensitive like yours and I go apeshit when I hear noisy teenagers on a train. And if I had a badge? You bet your ass I would flash it too!</div>
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I have zero tolerance for histrionics and manipulative behavior and I would rather be told the most awful truth than a well constructed lie. </div>
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I make good eye contact and often find myself speaking in monotone, repeating the same words until they come out just right or are understood. </div>
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I don't know if these traits are from your strict upbringing or if they are a genetic predisposition since I have come to learn that they are common for people with Aspergers Syndrome. Echolalia, sensory overload, a need for consistency. </div>
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Like you, I can be extremely focused and have special interests that have allowed me to become one of the "top four policy analysts to graduate from Columbia's program in the last 40 years" and "the only person [Congressman Cooper] knows in the state of Tennessee capable of understanding the complexities of the relevant health care law and policy issues."</div>
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Things haven't worked out the way I hoped and planned but you never told me life was fair or that everything would be okay.</div>
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I resigned from my job with the state because I couldn't tell my clients (juvenile offenders or victims of horrific abuse and neglect) that things "would get better" when I knew in my heart that they were in for a cruel, unjust ride through a corrupt welfare system and had little to no chance of surviving in this society if they expected to rely upon the "system" to meet their basic needs. </div>
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The system is designed to keep people locked into a dependence and learned helplessness with little chance of ever breaking free. </div>
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Having lived on under $17/day for more years than I care to admit.</div>
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I simply could not be a party to encouraging children and young adults to subscribe to that mindset and tell them their lives would improve; that the system would help them achieve independence when I knew damn well that I was fostering false hopes by encouraging a lifestyle of dependence that would likely continue into adulthood. </div>
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It broke my heart. It broke my spirit and it broke my faith in the system. </div>
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I no longer want to save the world. Quite frankly, I have given far too much of myself and my time working with charities and volunteering with non-profit agencies that paid me far less than I deserved because I let them. </div>
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I am paying for that now. But maybe someday, I will feel confident enough to demand a real salary and maybe even collect royalties on my publications and the book I wrote that sold 62,000 copies without paying me a dime. </div>
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I hope you will read it someday if you haven't already and know that I finally learned to speak and write the way you taught me to... </div>
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I do hope you know that despite my past and residual anger, I love you and hope that you love me too. </div>
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Love, </div>
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To: Marc Durant; Schuessler George; Rick; Stu; Social Justice; Vaxen; Joel; Elyssa Danielle Durant</div>
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Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-2262618591636659712013-08-27T06:38:00.000-05:002013-08-27T06:39:19.509-05:00UNWRITTEN: Patient Journal '04<div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">UNWRITTEN: Patient Journal '04</span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Beaten down with a pillow case; </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Having no time to plea my case. </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I have fallen much too far; </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Always watching my dwindling star. </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Trying to create a reason why; </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Always trying to maintain my high. </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But in the end it always fails; </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">And just like always, sadness prevails. </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I am always looked down on by family and friends; </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Can someone please pinch me when this madness ends. </span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></font></div><div><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Patient C. 8/15/04</span></font></div><div><br></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-27000224082425507702013-07-31T18:21:00.001-05:002013-07-31T18:21:53.103-05:00How Not to Die - Atlantic Mobile<div><p>How Not to Die - Atlantic Mobile<br> <a href="http://m.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2013/05/how-not-to-die/309277/?single_page=true">http://m.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2013/05/how-not-to-die/309277/?single_page=true</a></p> <hr> <p>Angelo Volandes's low-tech, high-empathy plan to revolutionize end-of-life care</p><div><p> Eric Ogden </p></div> <p> <span>Dr. Angelo Volandes </span>is making a film that he believes will change the way you die. The studio is his living room in Newton, Massachusetts, a suburb of Boston; the control panel is his laptop; the camera crew is a 24-year-old guy named Jake; the star is his wife, Aretha Delight Davis. Volandes, a thickening mesomorph with straight brown hair that is graying at his temples, is wearing a T-shirt and shorts and looks like he belongs at a football game. Davis, a beautiful woman of Guyanese extraction with richly braided hair, is dressed in a white lab coat over a black shirt and stands before a plain gray backdrop.</p> <p> "Remember: always slow," Volandes says.</p> <p> "Sure, hon," Davis says, annoyed. She has done this many times.</p> <p> Volandes claps to sync the sound. "Take one: Goals of Care, Dementia."</p> <p> <i>You are seeing this video because you are making medical decisions for a person with advanced dementia.</i> Davis intones the words in a calm, uninflected voice.<i> I'll show you a video of a person with advanced dementia. Then you will see images to help you understand the three options for their medical care.</i></p> <p> Her narration will be woven into a 10-minute film. The words I'm hearing will accompany footage of an elderly woman in a wheelchair. The woman is coiffed and dressed in her Sunday finest, wearing pearls and makeup for her film appearance, but her face is vacant and her mouth is frozen in the rictus of a permanent <i>O</i>.</p> <p> <i>This woman lives in a nursing home and has advanced dementia. She's seen here with her daughters. She has the typical features of advanced dementia … </i></p> <p> Young in affect and appearance, Volandes, 41, is an assistant professor at Harvard Medical School; Davis, also an M.D., is doing her residency in internal medicine, also at Harvard. When I heard about Volandes's work, I suspected he would be different from other doctors. I was not disappointed. He refuses to let me call him "Dr. Volandes," for example. Formality impedes communication, he tells me, and "there's nothing more essential to being a good doctor than your ability to communicate." More important, he believes that his videos can disrupt the way the medical system handles late-life care, and that the system urgently needs disrupting.</p> <p> "I think we're probably the most subversive two doctors to the health system that you will meet today," he says, a few hours before his shoot begins. "That has been told to me by other people."</p> <p> "You sound proud of that," I say.</p> <p> "I'm proud of that because it's being an agent of change, and the more I see poor health care, or health care being delivered that puts patients and families through—"</p> <p> "We torture people before they die," Davis interjects, quietly.</p> <p> Volandes chuckles at my surprise. "Remember, Jon is a reporter," he tells her, not at all unhappy with her comment.</p> <p> "My father, if he were sitting here, would be saying 'Right on,' " I tell him.</p> <p> Volandes nods. "Here's the sad reality," he says. "Physicians are good people. They want to do the right things. And yet all of us, behind closed doors, in the cafeteria, say, 'Do you believe what we did to that patient? Do you believe what we put that patient through?' Every single physician has stories. Not one. Lots of stories.</p> <p> "In the health-care debate, we've heard a lot about useless care, wasteful care, futile care. What we"—Volandes indicates himself and Davis—"have been struggling with is unwanted care. That's far more concerning. That's not avoidable care. That's <i>wrongful</i> care. I think that's the most urgent issue facing America today, is people getting medical interventions that, if they were more informed, they would not want. It happens all the time."</p> <p> <span>Unwanted treatment is </span>American medicine's dark continent. No one knows its extent, and few people want to talk about it. The U.S. medical system was built to treat anything that might be treatable, at any stage of life—even near the end, when there is no hope of a cure, and when the patient, if fully informed, might prefer quality time and relative normalcy to all-out intervention.</p> <p> In 2009, my father was suffering from an advanced and untreatable neurological condition that would soon kill him. (I wrote about his decline in an article for this magazine in April 2010.) Eating, drinking, and walking were all difficult and dangerous for him. He ate, drank, and walked anyway, because doing his best to lead a normal life sustained his morale and slowed his decline. "Use it or lose it," he often said. His strategy broke down calamitously when he agreed to be hospitalized for an MRI test. I can only liken his experience to an alien abduction. He was bundled into a bed, tied to tubes, and banned from walking without help or taking anything by mouth. No one asked him about what he wanted. After a few days, and a test that turned up nothing, he left the hospital no longer able to walk. Some weeks later, he managed to get back on his feet; unfortunately, by then he was only a few weeks from death. The episode had only one positive result. Disgusted and angry after his discharge from the hospital, my father turned to me and said, "I am <i>never</i> going back there." (He never did.)</p> <p> What should have taken place was what is known in the medical profession as The Conversation. The momentum of medical maximalism should have slowed long enough for a doctor or a social worker to sit down with him and me to explain, patiently and in plain English, his condition and his treatment options, to learn what his goals were for the time he had left, and to establish how much and what kind of treatment he really desired. Alas, evidence shows that The Conversation happens much less regularly than it should, and that, when it does happen, information is typically presented in a brisk, jargony way that patients and families don't really understand. Many doctors don't make time for The Conversation, or aren't good at conducting it (they're not trained or rewarded for doing so), or worry their patients can't handle it.</p> <p> This is a problem, because the assumption that doctors know what their patients want turns out to be wrong: when doctors try to predict the goals and preferences of their patients, they are "highly inaccurate," according to one summary of the research, published by Benjamin Moulton and Jaime S. King in <i>The </i><i>Journal of Law, Medicine & Ethics</i>. Patients are "routinely asked to make decisions about treatment choices in the face of what can only be described as avoidable ignorance," Moulton and King write. "In the absence of complete information, individuals frequently opt for procedures they would not otherwise choose."</p> <p> Though no one knows for sure, unwanted treatment seems especially common near the end of life. A few years ago, at age 94, a friend of mine's father was hospitalized with internal bleeding and kidney failure. Instead of facing reality (he died within days), the hospital tried to get authorization to remove his colon and put him on dialysis. Even physicians tell me they have difficulty holding back the kind of mindlessly aggressive treatment that one doctor I spoke with calls "the war on death." Matt Handley, a doctor and an executive with Group Health Cooperative, a big health system in Washington state, described his father-in-law's experience as a "classic example of overmedicalization." There was no Conversation. "He went to the ICU for no medical reason," Handley says. "No one talked to him about the fact that he was going to die, even though outside the room, clinicians, when asked, would say 'Oh, yes, he's dying.' "</p> <p> "Sometimes you block the near exits, and all you've got left is a far exit, which is not a dignified and comfortable death," Albert Mulley, a physician and the director of the Dartmouth Center for Health Care Delivery Science, told me recently. As we talked, it emerged that he, too, had had to fend off the medical system when his father died at age 93. "Even though I spent my whole career doing this," he said, "when I was trying to assure as good a death as I could for my dad, I found it wasn't easy."</p> <p> If it is this hard for doctors to navigate their parents' final days, imagine what many ordinary patients and their families face. "It's almost impossible for patients really to be in charge," says Joanne Lynn, a physician and the director of the nonprofit Altarum Center for Elder Care and Advanced Illness in Washington, D.C. "We enforce a kind of learned helplessness, especially in hospitals." I asked her how much unwanted treatment gets administered. She couldn't come up with a figure—no one can—but she said, "It's huge, however you measure it. Especially when people get very, very sick."</p> <p> Unwanted treatment is a particularly confounding problem because it is not a product of malevolence but a by-product of two strengths of American medical culture: the system's determination to save lives, and its technological virtuosity. Change will need to be consonant with that culture. "You have to be comfortable working at the margins of the power structure within medicine, and particularly within academic medicine," Mulley told me. You need a disrupter, but one who can speak the language of medicine and meet the system on its own terms.</p> <p> <span>Angelo Volandes was </span>born in 1971, in Brooklyn, to Greek immigrants. His father owned a diner. He and his older sister were the first in their family to go to college—Harvard, in his case. In Cambridge, he got a part-time job cooking for an elderly, childless couple, who became second parents to him. He watched as the wife got mortally sick, he listened to her labored breathing, he talked with her and her husband about pain, death, the end of life. Those conversations led him to courses in medical ethics, which he told me he found abstract and out of touch with "the clinical reality of being short of breath; of fear; of anxiety and suffering; of medications and interventions." He decided to go to medical school, not just to cure people but "to learn how people suffer and what the implications of dying and suffering and understanding that experience are like." Halfway through med school at Yale, on the recommendation of a doctor he met one day at the gym, he took a year off to study documentary filmmaking, another of his interests. At the time, it seemed a digression.</p> <p> On the very first night of his postgraduate medical internship, when he was working the graveyard shift at a hospital in Philadelphia, he found himself examining a woman dying of cancer. She was a bright woman, a retired English professor, but she seemed bewildered when he asked whether she wanted cardiopulmonary resuscitation if her heart stopped beating. So, on an impulse, he invited her to visit the intensive-care unit. By coincidence, she witnessed a "code blue," an emergency administration of CPR. "When we got back to the room," Volandes remembered, "she said, 'I understood what you told me. I am a professor of English—I understood the words. I just didn't know what you meant. It's not what I had imagined. It's not what I saw on TV.' " She decided to go home on hospice. Volandes realized that he could make a stronger, clearer impression on patients by showing them treatments than by trying to describe them.</p> <p> He spent the next few years punching all the tickets he could: mastering the technical arts of doctoring, credentialing himself in medical ethics, learning statistical techniques to perform peer-reviewed clinical trials, joining the Harvard faculty and the clinical and research staff of Massachusetts General Hospital. He held on to his passion, though. During a fellowship at Harvard in 2004, he visited Dr. Muriel Gillick, a Harvard Medical School professor and an authority on late-life care. Volandes "was very distressed by what he saw clinically being done to people with advanced dementia," Gillick recalls. "He was interested in writing an article about how treatment of patients with advanced dementia was a form of abuse." Gillick talked him down. Some of what's done is wrong, she agreed, but raging against it would not help. The following year, with her support, Volandes began his video project.</p> <p> The first film he made featured a patient with advanced dementia. It showed her inability to converse, move about, or feed herself. When Volandes finished the film, he ran a randomized clinical trial with a group of nine other doctors. All of their patients listened to a verbal description of advanced dementia, and some of them also watched the video. All were then asked whether they preferred life-prolonging care (which does everything possible to keep patients alive), limited care (an intermediate option), or comfort care (which aims to maximize comfort and relieve pain). The results were striking: patients who had seen the video were significantly more likely to choose comfort care than those who hadn't seen it (86 percent versus 64 percent). Volandes published that study in 2009, following it a year later with an even more striking trial, this one showing a video to patients dying of cancer. Of those who saw it, more than 90 percent chose comfort care—versus 22 percent of those who received only verbal descriptions. The implications, to Volandes, were clear: "Videos communicate better than just a stand-alone conversation. And when people get good communication and understand what's involved, many, if not most, tend not to want a lot of the aggressive stuff that they're getting."</p> <p> <span>Even now, after </span>years of refinement, Volandes's finished videos look deceptively unimpressive. They're short, and they're bland. But that, it turns out, is what is most impressive about them. Other videos describing treatment options—for, say, breast cancer or heart disease—can last upwards of 30 minutes. Volandes's films, by contrast, average six or seven minutes. They are meant to be screened on iPads or laptops, amid the bustle of a clinic or hospital room.</p> <p> They are also meant to be banal, a goal that requires a meticulous, if perverse, application of the filmmaker's art. "Videos are an aesthetic medium; you can manipulate people's perspective," Volandes says. "I want to provide information <i>without</i> evoking visceral emotions." Any hint that he was appealing to sentiments like revulsion or fear to nudge patients toward a certain course of treatment would discredit his whole project, so Volandes does all he can to eliminate emotional cues. That is why he films advanced-dementia patients dressed and groomed to the nines. "I give them the nicest image," Volandes told me. "If with the nicest image we show a huge effect, you can imagine what it would be like if they really saw the reality."</p> <p> The typical video begins with Davis explaining what the viewer is about to see, stating plainly facts that doctors are sometimes reluctant to mention. She says, for example: <i>People with advanced dementia usually have had the disease for many years and have reached the last stage of dementia. They are nearing the end of life</i>. The video cuts to a shot of a patient. Then Davis outlines the three levels of care, starting with the most aggressive. Over footage of CPR and mechanical ventilation, she explains that in most cases of advanced dementia, CPR does not work, and that patients on breathing machines are usually not aware of their surroundings and cannot eat or talk. Then she describes limited care and comfort care, again speaking bluntly about death. <i>People who choose comfort care choose to avoid these procedures even though, without them, they might die. </i>She concludes by recommending The Conversation.</p> <p> It seems a minor thing, showing a short video. As, indeed, it will be, if it happens only occasionally. I didn't get my head around the scale of Volandes's ambition until I understood that he wants to make his videos ubiquitous. His intention is not only to provide clearer information but, more important, to trigger The Conversation as a matter of medical routine. "We're saying, 'You're not doing your job if you are not having these conversations in a meaningful way with patients and their families,' " he tells me. "If every patient watched a video, there's standardization in the process. That's why I call it subversive. Very few things in medicine can change the culture like that."</p> <p> Routine use, however, is far, far away. According to Volandes, only a few dozen U.S. hospitals, out of more than 5,700, are using his videos. I spoke with physicians and a social worker at three health systems that are piloting them, and all were very enthusiastic about the results. Volandes is particularly hopeful about a collaboration with the Hawaii Medical Service Association, the state's dominant health-insurance provider, which is piloting the videos in hospitals, nursing homes, and doctors' offices. Officials say they hope to expand use statewide within three years. Right now, though, Volandes's videos have a limited reach.</p> <p> The problem is not his product but the peculiar nature of the market he wants to push it into. His innovation is inexpensive and low-tech, and might avert misunderstanding, prevent suffering, improve doctor-patient relationships, and, incidentally, save the health-care system a lot of money. He goes out of his way not to emphasize cost savings, partly because he sees himself as a patients'-rights advocate rather than a bean counter, and partly because it is so easy to demagogue the issue, as Sarah Palin did so mendaciously (and effectively) in 2009, when she denounced end-of-life-care planning as "death panels." Anyone who questions medical maximalism risks being attacked for trying to kill grandma—all the more so if he mentions saving money. For all its talk of making the health-care system more rational and less expensive, the political system is still not ready for an honest discussion. And the medical system has its own ways of fighting back.</p> <p> <span>Volandes works on </span>his videos ceaselessly. He has curtailed his medical practice and his teaching responsibilities, both of which he misses, and last year gave more than 70 speeches evangelizing for the video project. In an effort to batter the medical establishment into submission with the sheer weight of scientific evidence, he has conducted 13 clinical trials using videos to depict different diseases and situations, and he has seven more studies in the pipeline. He says he gets by on three or four hours of sleep a night. The project has taken over his house. Davis would like her living room back; there are floodlights and a big gray backdrop where her paintings should be.</p> <p> Volandes thinks he can sustain this pace for perhaps five years—by which time he hopes to have revolutionized American medicine. Davis tries to dial back his expectations, but he resists. "Not when I have nurses and doctors use words like <i>torture</i> as often as they do," he says. "In order to make a change, you've got to be ambitious. If not, then just publish and get your tenure and move on."</p> <p> During my visit, I realized that I had encountered Volandes's type before, but in Silicon Valley. Volandes has entrepreneurial obsessive-compulsive disorder: the gift, and curse, of unswerving faith in a potentially world-changing idea.</p> <p> It is not a huge exaggeration to say that obsessive entrepreneurs, from Cornelius Vanderbilt to Steve Jobs, made America great. It is also not a huge exaggeration to say that health care, more than any other nongovernmental sector, has made itself impervious to disruptive innovation. Medical training discourages entrepreneurship, embedded practice patterns marginalize it, bureaucrats in medical organizations and insurance companies recoil from it. And would-be disrupters are generally disconnected from patients, their ultimate customers: they have to take their innovations to physicians, who are notoriously change-averse, and then they must get the government—Medicare, first and foremost—to approve and pay for them. Imagine that Jeff Bezos, when he was starting Amazon, had needed to ask permission from bookstores and libraries.</p> <p> Volandes, therefore, will fail. That is to say, he will fail if success means revolutionizing the doctor-patient relationship and making The Conversation ubiquitous within five years. Meanwhile, if the American health-care system does not learn how to harness the energy and ideas of people like Volandes, <i>it</i> will fail. Somewhere between those failures lies a path forward. We know medical culture can change for the better; it takes the treatment of pain much more seriously than it used to, for example, and it has embraced hospice care.</p> <p> The best news about U.S. health care today is that a lot of reform-minded entrepreneurship is bubbling up from within. Volandes is not alone. So many patients and doctors and family members feel marginalized and bureaucratized and overwhelmed that some health systems and insurers, in spontaneous mini-rebellions, are starting to innovate, often on their own dime. I think of Dr. Brad Stuart of Sutter Health at Home, who is building a new late-life-care system that bridges the gap between hospital and hospice, allowing the very sick to receive more care at home; I think of Dr. Derek Raghavan of Carolinas HealthCare System's Levine Cancer Institute, who is building a "cancer center without walls" that uses telemedicine and other tools to make state-of-the-art treatment available to patients, regardless of where they live. I think of Dr. Woody English of Providence Health and Services, who is 67 and wants to make a difference before he retires. At his instigation, Providence has begun using Volandes's videos. "The changes will come locally," English told me, "not nationally." When I look at him and Volandes and the others, I see not only a test of whether the health-care system's medical culture can change but also a test of whether its <i>business</i> culture can change—and that change may, in the end, be even more important.</p> <p> <span>The morning after </span><span>the shoot</span>, Volandes shows me some of the footage he plans to use. We watch a patient with advanced Alzheimer's being fed through a tube that has been surgically inserted into her stomach. An attendant uses a big syringe to clear the tube, then attaches a bag of thick fluid. Over the footage, Davis's voice will say, <i>Often, people hope tube feeding will help the patient live longer. But tube feeding has not been shown to prolong or improve the quality of life in advanced dementia. Tube feeding also does not stop saliva or food from going down the wrong way</i>.</p> <p> Volandes is explaining to me that tube feeding is overused in elderly dementia patients, but my mind has floated back to 2009. My father's disease, by then, had destroyed his ability to protect his airway when he swallowed; food, drink, and saliva ended up in his lungs. He coughed violently when he ate or drank. Doctors mentioned tube feeding as an option, and well-intentioned friends nudged us in that direction. But his friends had no real idea what tube feeding entailed, and neither did I, and neither did he.</p> <p> "Let me ask you this," Volandes says. "Suppose I'm having a conversation with you about whether your father would want this. And I said<i> '</i>feeding tube,' and you're thinking to yourself, <i>Food, yeah, I could give food to my mom or dad</i>. We just want to make sure that regardless of the way the gastroenterologist is presenting the procedure, the patient's loved ones know <i>this</i> is what we're talking about."</p> <p> Not long before my father died, I asked a hospice nurse about tube feeding. He told me, with grim clarity: "I think that would be cruel." I remember that nurse with gratitude, because he was right. But "that would be cruel" was not a substitute for The Conversation.</p> <p><br></p> </div><div><br><br> </div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-35534737772284591982013-07-29T20:28:00.001-05:002014-02-21T13:05:36.133-06:00AWS Identity and Access Management (IAM)<div><p><b><i>AWS Identity and Access Management (IAM)<br> <a href="http://aws.amazon.com/iam/">http://aws.amazon.com/iam/</a></i></b></p> <hr> <div><div> <p>IAM allows you to:</p> <p><b>Manage IAM users and their access</b> - You can create users in IAM, assign them individual security credentials (i.e., access keys, passwords, and <a href="http://aws.amazon.com/mfa/">Multi-Factor Authentication</a> devices) or request temporary security credentials to provide users access to AWS services and resources. You can manage permissions in order to control which operations a user can perform. </p><p> <b>Manage IAM roles and their permissions</b> - You can create roles in IAM, and manage permissions to control which operations can be performed by the entity, or AWS service, that assumes the role. You can also define which entity is allowed to assume the role. </p><p> <b>Manage federated users and their permissions</b> - You can enable identity federation to allow existing identities (e.g. users) in your enterprise to access the AWS Management Console, to call AWS APIs, and to access resources, without the need to create an IAM user for each identity. </p><p>You enable identity federation by requesting temporary security credentials that can be used to sign requests to AWS. The temporary security credentials are comprised of short- lived access keys and session tokens associated with the keys. Your enterprise users can use the access keys the same way as before, as long as they pass the token along in the calls that they make to the AWS APIs. The permissions associated with temporary security credentials are at most equal to those of the IAM user who issued them; you can further restrict them by specifying explicit permissions as part of the request to create them. There is no limit on the number of temporary security credentials that can be issued.</p> <p>As an example, an enterprise might want an application running on all employee laptops to perform daily backups to an employee-specific subfolder in Amazon S3. The enterprise could run a small application that would serve as an "identity broker", requesting an AWS temporary security credential for each user after they login to their corporate network. This credential could specify the exact permissions granted (i.e. write access to a particular S3 bucket/folder), and the duration of the permissions (i.e. 12 hours). 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Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-63212020027180257562013-07-29T11:28:00.000-05:002013-07-29T11:39:25.744-05:00Grunwald Associates - Mobile Learning Study<div><p>Grunwald Associates - Mobile Learning Study<br> <a href="http://www.grunwald.com/reports/mobile-learning-study.php">http://www.grunwald.com/reports/mobile-learning-study.php</a></p> <hr> <table> <tbody><tr> <td> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <table> <tbody><tr> <td> <table> <tbody><tr> <td> <h2>More than ever before, kids are using mobile devices in the classroom and at home.</h2> <p>Find out what this means for your business in our <strong><em>Mobile Learning Study</em></strong>. 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It examines parents' perceptions of how <strong><em>preschoolers through high school students</em></strong> are using mobile devices and applications for learning from home and at school.</p> <div><p>Key strategic questions addressed in this study include:</p><ul> <li>What types of devices are students using and what is required by their schools?</li> <li>What types of applications and features compel students to use mobile devices frequently?</li> <li>How are students getting free or paid content on their mobile devices?</li> <li>What platform and apps do parents think is best for their child's learning?</li> <li>How are mobile devices for school affecting Student work at home?</li> <li>What do parents think about mobile devices, including safety, responsibility and who pays?</li> </ul></div> <div><h2>Corporate Licenses are Now Available</h2><p>"Deep dive" into the findings from our mobile survey.</p><p>Corporate License Packages Include:</p><ul> <li>Executive audio briefing to explore the impact of mobile learning on your business</li> <li>Presentation-style report with actionable recommendations (100+ pages)</li> <li>Detailed survey cross-tabs (1,000 pages of data)</li> <li>Private briefings, unlimited group license pricing and raw data are also available</li> </ul><p>Startup and Non-Profit Data Licenses are Also Available</p><h4>Call <a href="tel:301-637-2740" x-apple-data-detectors="true" x-apple-data-detectors-type="telephone" x-apple-data-detectors-result="1">301-637-2740</a> to reserve your copy today.</h4></div> </td> </tr> </tbody></table> </td> </tr> </tbody></table> </td> </tr> <tr> <td></td> </tr> </tbody></table> <p><br></p></div><div><br> </div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-14389511671840890692013-07-24T10:35:00.000-05:002013-07-24T10:39:18.919-05:00Cyberwhore: A True Story of Hoarding and Collecting Digital Data © 2008-2013<div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Cyberwhore</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">by Elyssa Durant, voices.yahoo.com</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">May 21st 2008</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Background / Introduction:</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Shortly after I moved back to New York City to complete my graduate degree, I lost all of my personal, physical belongings in a household fire. What wasn't destroyed was stolen shortly afterwards and I have very few things I created in along the way.</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">And though the memories surrounding this devastating loss are crystal clear in my head, my journals and my artwork are gone forever. Losing my journals, my books, my photo albums, and all of my school work was even worse than losing my home. I lost a piece of myself in the process. A piece that can never be replaced... If only I had the foresight to back up all of my work-- scan in my photos, or find a safe deposit box I could afford, perhaps I could have finished my assignments on time and completed the last few credits necessary for my PhD.</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I became obsessed with backing up data and making photocopies of any and every piece of my past I could find -- just in case!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I was eventually diagnosed with OCD and a myriad of other related anxiety disorders. </div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I wrote this letter to my therapist who helped me get through the most challenging time of my life. Not only did he belierve in my talent-- he convinced to me to start writing again-- even if my skills are a little rusty!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Thanks Dr. T!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">-edd</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">GT:</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">"Hi Elyssa,</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">It's nice to hear from you, I had just been thinking of you. Is there a reason why you sent me two copies?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Talk to you soon,"</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">___________________________________</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">EDD:</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Now how can you call yourself a qualified therapist and ask me such a stupid question?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I have at two of everything!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I did not intend to send you two copies. I do recognize this is abnormal behavior!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">So my alter ego as a "Cyberwhore?" is no longer a secret! I always send duplicate copies of every outgoing e-mail to myself to a number of free-mail accounts. Most have probably expired and I can't even remember most of the passwords to access them-- which leads me to wonder what happens to my written works that I have so carefully created? Do they just float around in cyberspace forever? Are my words now immortal? Does that make me grandiose or paranoid?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">So-- as you can see, I am doing well in Nashville! I had my first appointment with my new psychiatrist on Wednesday and he seems very, "eager." to help. He is a very young resident, and I think he is rather psyched that he was placed at Vanderbilt rather than some community mental health center in rural Tennessee. For his training, he needs a number of hours conducting therapy-- so I graciously agreed to be one of his guinea pigs. I negotiated a one-hour session every other week-- kind of weird, huh?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I hate therapy. It seems so staged and rehearsed. I actually spend hours before a session trying to think of what I should say...</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">That never seemed to work with you. That always kind of annoyed me, because I wanted you to play the game with me. This is the way it is supposed to work: I tell you what happened as a child, and you tell me the source of my insanity.</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I would try to remember the random things that would happened each day that would let you know that I was telling you the truth about my life, my world, my family. On many occasions, I would forget my zinger, my "punch line" if you will, and I would be so disappointed in myself. I would drop these little hints; tidbits of information; hoping you would recognize that I was not completely beyond help, and you might understand the method to my madness. Would that make it okay to be so god damned fucked up? Loony? Crazy? Nuts!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">In all that time, you never once said, "AHA!" Instead, you would listen impatiently as I reflected on childhood traumas. Even the most elaborate reports of my childhood experience did not make you flinch-- well, maybe a few times! At what point did you realize that there was some truth in what I was telling you? I would say the same thing over and over because I knew it to be true. To be fact. To be far more cruel and evil than anything I could I make believe as a child? I want to stop playing those games. I am ready to be a person. I am ready to love. I am ready to be "normal."</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">As I grow, I would like to become more direct, more assertive, and more sure of what I am saying and how it is being received. In the past, I would sit with silence and ambivalence and just fall into situations by default. I do not want complacency to guide me through life. I am not incapable of protecting myself anymore. I hated being such a passive participant in my own life. Not knowing where I would be living, with whom, and for how long. Learned helplessness. I wonder how things might have been different... if only... I will never know how these events shaped my life and broke my mind. What caused my mind to break? Was I too weak? Was there some point where I should have thrown in the towel and taken my own life? Was there anything, anything I could have done differently to survive? Is there a "normal" breaking point? Did I put up a good fight? Did I do okay?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I want to act with purpose, speak with conviction, and be confident in my decisions. I want to chose action rather than inaction and feel comfortable with the choices I have made. No more ruminating over what I should have, might have, almost did... I, I, I...</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I am so textbook; it is becoming quite a bore!</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">You were not interested in treating my mind like a puzzle missing one piece. At one point do you say there's no hope? Will my fear of going completely insane ever go away? What if I am unable to write? Unable to communicate? Unable to interact with the human race on any significant level leaving me with no outlet for my overactive mind and compulsive need to write it all down... what if I am left with no outlet? No pen, no keyboard, no voice, no release. Am I a good writer? Does my writing make sense? Does anybody "get it?" Is it worthwhile or just a pile of crap that serves only as a solo desperate attempt at creativity? Do people laugh when I they read my work? Do they think I should accept my limitations and just marry rich like a pretty girl should?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">How did you manage to put my mind back together again without knowing what went wrong? Is my head okay? Can I have children?</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">You were a good therapist. You are a good therapist. The best.</div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div style="color: rgb(85, 85, 85); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 17px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Elyssa</div><div><br></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-17952828423851111472013-06-19T00:33:00.001-05:002013-06-19T00:33:22.457-05:00Unemployment Crisis in America<div id="RIL_header" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: left; "><h1 style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0.2em 0px 7px; padding: 0px 0px 0.7em; border-bottom-width: 4px; border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); "><span style="font-size: 17px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Unemployment Crisis in America</span></h1><cite style="margin: 0px 0px 25px; padding: 0px; display: block; font-style: normal; "><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">by <a class="RIL_author" href="http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/1714521/unemployment_crisis_in_america.html?cat=9" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; font-weight: bold; ">Elyssa Durant</a>, </span></div><span class="RIL_date" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;">May 4th 2009</div></span></cite></div><div id="RIL_body" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; clear: both; text-align: left; "><div id="RIL_less" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; "><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><i nodeindex="191" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">After being rejected from a job that pays $18,000 / year at the women's prison, a job that pays $21,000 teaching Head Start, getting fired from Red Lobster (because apparently, I am just not Red Lobster "material" I decided to go to the Tennessee Career Center to take advantage of their high speed internet, free printer paper, and ink...</i></div><p nodeindex="29" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">now would not be the best time to mention my senior thesis-- or my grad school major, or the fact that i spent the better part life as a volunteer and advocate for children at-risk.. working to give them hope and a second chance at life.</span></p><p nodeindex="30" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">systematically invalidating such bogus, barnum-type feedback that one typically gets from a MBTI type of personality test that is given during high school or in college. i won't bother to mention the standardization of SAT scores to help our country feel better-- or the fact that the stanford-binet was created for military issue only.</span></p><p nodeindex="31" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">who gives a shit anymore??? if you told a me a fat bearded lady at the circus could decide my fate and tell me what direction i should choose next-- i'd take it! and throw in a fat tip for being smart enough to know that any answer-- no matter how grim, is far better than just wandering aimlessly through life looking back on what might have been-- at THIRTY? at THIRTY-SIX???</span></p><p nodeindex="32" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">after receiving five letters of rejection from jobs that require nothing more than a GED or a high school diploma, i decided to go to the tennessee career center hoping to find a job that will allow me to afford the most basic necessities of life. toothpaste, toilet paper, cat food... i got hooked up with a counselor that afternoon. he has two masters degrees-- one in educational career counseling, and a second in counseling psychology. could this be the guidance counselor i have been asking for since.. well... since... i was old enough to know was in need of guidance?</span></p><p nodeindex="33" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">surely someone else must have recognized i was in need of guidance, but god knows my parents weren't paying attention, and having good genes just doesn't cut it these days. but now more than ever, i realize that having all the smarts in the world won't get you anywhere if you never learned how to apply them.</span></p><p nodeindex="34" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">i am the exact same five year old who needed to win the spelling bee. in college, i was the one to set the curve, not just make it. the one to break the rules, and, break them i did, but there is no glory in being second best, second smartest, second brightest, or second anything.</span></p><p nodeindex="35" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">i wish i could say that after all this time i developed other ego strengths and finally felt okay with who i am, you know.... "just being me," but i am sad to report that my "condition" (diagnosis) was amazingly accurate and predictable. just like all the doctors said! i wonder if they derive joy out of being right-- if they crack open a bottle of aged liquor in my fathers office and say, "see, we told you so. we told you their was nothing you could do." and so nothing they did.</span></p><p nodeindex="36" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">and by doing nothing, and i do mean nothing-- the illness will just take will its course. and i am now, in fact, nothing. nothing costs nothing (at least to them) and daddy made another fine investment. on the other hand, nothing has drained every hope, fear, security-- every chance-- and every last breath from my body. i might have believed in me. but i know i'm alive because a tear just rolled down the side of my cheek. i am home.</span></p><p nodeindex="37" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">but i still haven't learned. for some reason with all of my failures i am reminded of in so many ways... me, myself, as i watch them play out every time i shut my eyes or open them. yes- blink.</span></p><p nodeindex="38" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">sometimes i ask myself, how did i get here? how did this happen? what happened to all of the plans i made for myself? where did they go? where did I go? constantly replayed over and over and over again in my mind. i must be F---ING CRAZY!</span></p><p nodeindex="39" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">but at this moment, here, even as i say the words, i am not truly insane, i am merely in pain. what a tragedy that those two words rhyme-- they ruin what could have been a very profound misnomer of the human condition and the labels we hold so dear.</span></p><p nodeindex="40" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">i am the exact same 5 year old who needed to ACE the spelling bee, set the curve, not just make it; break the rules, and, break them i did. there is no glory in being second best. second smartest, second brightest, or second anything. being second sucks. it sucks every god-damned second of the day.</span></p><p nodeindex="41" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">and so my search for mediocrity continues and i wait for it each and every day hoping it will find me beaten and worn from the storm. all of the storms, but dammit, its still there. i still have questions those damn elyssa questions that made all my professors so proud, damn ideas, damn thoughts, damn hope.</span></p><p nodeindex="42" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">my mother still calls me everyday to see if i went to get food stamps to feed myself, #EFF her, and her #EFF'n things. #EFF diamonds, couture, and #EFF that life. i was here mom, the whole #EFF'n time. just not pretty enough with out any surgery. not pretty at all, with all those damn scars.</span></p><p nodeindex="43" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">i hope someone out there still loves me. i do actually believe that i deserve love and kindness despite the obvious fact that i am a royal pain in the ass. i refuse to work in burger king. for right now, at least.</span></p><p nodeindex="44" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">so goodnight my dear friends. let's all try to have sweet dreams. pepe awaits, as does alanis, and a pack of smokes that i can already taste.</span></p><p nodeindex="45" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">yes, what could have been, what should have been-- what MIGHT have been if you let me be</span></p><p nodeindex="46" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">m.e.</span></p><p nodeindex="47" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">"When written in chinese, the word Crisis is composed of tvo characters: One represents danger and the other represents opportunity." -JFK</span></p></div></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-30347293465099909422013-06-18T09:18:00.000-05:002013-06-18T09:18:10.959-05:00Google Goggles: Sanity Checker by ELyssa Durant, Ed.M.<div align="justify"><br /><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: 180%;"><span style="font-size: 100%;"><i><b><span style="color: #cc0000;"></span></b></i></span></span></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><i><span style="color: #cc0000;">Google Goggles: Sanity Checker!</span></i></span><br /><br />
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<div style="text-align: justify;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMfzKOASgXTlub8UI3J-4bMuIFvpAQIxQXK_sWDqIETGqzEHnmAGXVSuTcLYC6CROJMIAFLMaH-Yknz9OgXRb-03fEDyMLryY1QMef7l_ScJN7pYyNBXCPEZLpDRHK1nP-7gVN4QfbqbA/s1600/Copy+of+WINTER+09+-+Copy2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="285" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMfzKOASgXTlub8UI3J-4bMuIFvpAQIxQXK_sWDqIETGqzEHnmAGXVSuTcLYC6CROJMIAFLMaH-Yknz9OgXRb-03fEDyMLryY1QMef7l_ScJN7pYyNBXCPEZLpDRHK1nP-7gVN4QfbqbA/s400/Copy+of+WINTER+09+-+Copy2.jpg" width="400" /></a><span style="font-family: georgia;"></span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: black;">How much do I love, love,</span> the person who created this program???<br /><br />
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If only I had this years ago... before I buried myself in hundreds of hard copies and countless drafts waiting to be edited, checked, scanned, formatted, reviewed, merged, referenced, compared or merged with older versions of the same document.</span></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Files upon files are waiting to be examined, edited, completed, and submitted <i>at a later date TBA...</i> </span><br /><br />
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<div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">At least I am not the only one in need of a "sanity checker!" </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Living everyday with so much unfinished business and self-doubt has stopped me dead in my tracks! Preventing me from moving forward and doing so many things that are absent from my life. </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Even the most simple tasks become insurmountable obstacles when left to my own devices (usually at least 2-3 dictionaries, a thesaurus, grammar textbook, and the Chicago Manual of Style or the APA.) Ridiculous, right? Everything in my life takes at least 3x longer than the average (normal) individual. This can be anything from filing a job application, turning in graduate school applications, assignments and projects on time...<br /><br />
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EVERYTHING is late!<br /><br />
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EVERYTHING is pending!<br /><br />
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EVERYTHING is probably good enough!<br /><br />
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EVERYTHING was probably good enough in the first time around!<br /><br />
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Getting caught up on insignificant details such as grammar, text wrapping, format styles, has come to define my adult life and experience. Interfering with my academic, personal, and professional goals</span><br /><br />
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<blockquote class="tr_bq"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><span style="color: #333399;"><i>I want a sanity checker!!!!</i></span></b></span></blockquote><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><span style="color: #333399;"><i> </i></span></b><br /><br />
When you are still editing the very same article after 13 or 14 years, you have a problem.</span><br /><br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq"><span style="font-family: inherit;"> </span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><span style="color: #6600cc;"><i>I have a problem!</i></span></b></span></blockquote><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><span style="color: #6600cc;"><i> </i></span></b><br /><br />
If I can ever figure out how to use it, hopefully it will prevent me from searching through thousands of text logs and backup files....<br /><br />
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<i><span style="color: #6600cc;"><b>I need a sanity checker!</b></span></i> </span></blockquote><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
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Working on your um-teenth hundredth draft gets tedious. Hopefully google goggles is better at time management and will not spend too much time hovering over typos, font size and other imperfections that probably make my writing a little more human.... a few misplaced commas never hurt anyone unless they are placed after a dollar sign!<br /><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Where can I sign up for a personal the "sanity checker" to guide me through the rest of my life??? To clear a path to my desk or help me find the floor...<br /><br />
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Thanks so much to the genius who invented this gadget! I hope it works well!<br /><br />
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How I wish I could revert back to my days before the technological revolution. My mind has information overload. My life has information overload. My brain is full!</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">My cyberseeking tools and inquisitive mind have become my kryptonite. Please-- make it stop! Stop the questions, stop the memories, stop the madness!</span><br /><br />
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<b><i><span style="color: #33cc00;">Just,</span><span style="color: yellow;"> plain,</span><span style="color: #ffff33;"> </span><span style="color: red;">stop!</span></i></b> </span></blockquote></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I miss Professor Marks' red ink pens back in college. Long before I knew what a computer was or how to turn the damn thing on. Now there's e-mail, Internet, spyware, malware, software utilities...<br /><br />
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Life was so much easier before I became dependent upon technology and this stupid little box I cannot seem to pull myself away from. And now, much like my racing thoughts and RAM (random access memory) and my crazy busy mind that is a near perfect reflection of my chaotic life. My paper trail reaches from one room into the next... one year to the next... one decade to the next...<br /><br />
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Now I can't seem to turn the thing off... I can't seem to turn anything in, and I can't seem to make things just perfect enough.<br /><br />
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Wish me luck as I uncover more and more of my past... although I have often had regrets about sending imperfect documents prematurely: either too soon, too often, or sometimes too early; surely sending something is far better than not sending anything at all... </span><br /><br />
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">In this life, people are never remembered for what they start-- only for what they finish.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></div><div align="left"><br /><br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq"><a href="http://www.nycvoices.org/article_841.php" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Related Publications by ELyssa Durant, Ed.M.</span></a></blockquote><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_484847672"><br /></a><br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq"><a href="http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/779101/cyberwhore.html?cat=6" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: inherit;">STOLEN PUBLICATION by ELyssa Durant, Ed.M.</span></a></blockquote></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /><br />
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<a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/10/19/fashion/19drunk.html?partner=permalink&exprod=permalink">Even </a>The New York Times posted a peralink. :( Not fair, copyLEFT<br /><br />
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HYPERLINK ADDED FOR IN YOUR FACE PURPOSES... 1/7/10<br /><br />
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<span style="color: red;"><b><i>GOOGLE GOOGLES... I HAD THEM FIRST. GRRRRR...</i></b><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><br /><br />
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<div align="left"><span style="color: #993399;"><b><i>ANYONE ELSE NEED A SANITY</i></b> <b><i>CHECKER? </i></b><b><i>LINK BELOW!</i></b></span><br /><br />
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Permalink: <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/10/19/fashion/19drunk.html?partner=permalink&exprod=permalink">http://www.nytimes.com/2008/10/19/fashion/19drunk.html?partner=permalink&exprod=permalink</a><br /><br />
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<br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: black; font-family: georgia;"><i>(your welcome!)</i></span></div><div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left"><br /></div><br /><br />
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<a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/10/19/fashion/19drunk.html?scp=1&sq=mail%20goggles&st=cse">Drunk, and Dangerous, at the Keyboard</a>Mail Goggles, a new feature on Google’s Gmail program, is intended to help stamp out a scourge that few knew existed: late-night drunken e-mailing.October 19, 2008 - By ALEX WILLIAMS - Fashion & Style<br /><br />
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<a href="http://bits.blogs.nytimes.com/tag/herbalking/?scp=2&sq=mail%20goggles&st=cse">HERBALKING - Bits Blog</a>Mail Goggles, a new feature on Google’s Gmail program, is intended to help stamp out a scourge that few knew existed: late-night drunken ...<br /><br />
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<a href="http://topics.nytimes.com/top/news/business/companies/google_inc/index.html?scp=3&sq=mail%20goggles&st=cse">Google Inc.</a> Mail Goggles, a new feature on Google’s Gmail program, is intended to help stamp out a scourge that few knew existed: late-night drunken e-mailing. ...<br /><br />
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<a href="http://www.nytimes.com/gst/mostblogged.html?scp=5&sq=mail%20goggles&st=cse">from the Blog Community ...</a>Mail Goggles, a new feature on Google's Gmail program, is intended to help stamp out a scourge that few knew existed: latenight drunken emailing. ...<br /><br />
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I WILL ADD THE LATEST VERSION.... OF ANOTHER BRILLIANT IDEA THAT I SHOULD NEVER HAVE LET OUT OF THE BAG... FUCK THE NEW YORK TIMES.<br /><br />
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I STILL REMEMBER THE HEADLINE YOU SNAGGED ON SEPTEMPBER 12: THAT WAS MINE TOO. YOUR REPORTER COULD HAVE AT LEAST BOUGHT ME DRINK WHILE SITTING NEXT TO ME IN THE EAST VILLAGE! Grrrr..... #yeahisaidit <br /><br />
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THE EMPIRE STRIKES BACK. Catchy, approprite, and I even can't get letter to the editor?<br /><br />
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Well things are chaning. The news is in our hands now. So no more media manipualtion. i'm so tired of reading the crap you guys put out to distract us from he issues.... and since I get a job... i may as well, keep writing for free..<br /><br />
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AC made a forutne off the story I posted for free... but I haven't forgotten. <br /><br />
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I know my own words. and it really hurts when I can't even get a letter to the editor printed, or a response from a local journalist about when call give them a hint where to look for REAL news<br /><br />
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So I don't give a fuck if you all go down in flames. Power to the people.<br /><br />
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Because they wrote me off long ago.... and you may laugh because I'm different, but I laugh because you are all the same. <br /><br />
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$1.00 for this story..... how much did AC make? I call your bluff. And funny thing.... I never even got the dollar. I can't wait for that audit. <br /><br />
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it may some time, but you have no idea, how much I could have helped you. It was is a good story. The economist thought so... so did USA today. you guys just can't handle the truth.<br /><br />
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All I wanted was to get the information out, so why charge ME to download my own story only to see someone elses byline?<br /><br />
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I am watching the watchers.... and heads, up... I'm pretty damn good at it! <br /><br />
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#yeahisaidit and i'll say it again if i need to. <br /><br />
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Fuck you, AC!<br /><br />
<br /></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-91261065259322667672013-06-18T08:50:00.003-05:002013-06-18T08:50:29.569-05:00@ELyssaD On Amazon<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsR7WLHP75AOIFsyZrq0h9pV-SWSRC_YFxGf3F_rEWS2x3dtpUmq3vG9s3P64m6fr5jljVaZZhGN8M4wlXvMH3tdBrZ5RhDpX51Cq_Z9J_8oLhL2Dl8VkK7VHoE9GZ3yI1dIoo2LTd-AM/s1600/Sanity+for+Superheroes.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsR7WLHP75AOIFsyZrq0h9pV-SWSRC_YFxGf3F_rEWS2x3dtpUmq3vG9s3P64m6fr5jljVaZZhGN8M4wlXvMH3tdBrZ5RhDpX51Cq_Z9J_8oLhL2Dl8VkK7VHoE9GZ3yI1dIoo2LTd-AM/s400/Sanity+for+Superheroes.jpg" style="clear: both; float: left; margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px;" /></a><br /><br />
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<b>Unique and insightful</b><nobr></nobr><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0.5em; text-align: justify;"><div><div style="float: left;">By </div><div style="float: left;"><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/pdp/profile/A3NBY9LGXSYCNI/ref=cm_cr_rdp_pdp"><span style="font-weight: bold;">jerome d. yencharis</span></a></div></div></div><br /><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Ms. Durant has drawn on her sterling academic background and extensive experience in <a href="http://www.amazon.com/review/RN4WAKPQVE8FL/ref=cm_cr_pr_perm?ie=UTF8&ASIN=B00BHV7018&linkCode=&nodeID=&tag=#" id="_GPLITA_0" style="text-decoration: underline;" title="Click to Continue > by Text-Enhance">health services</a><br />
policy development and actual service in the field to present a <br />
comprehensive analysis of the organ transplant situation in the United <br />
States. She thoroughly discusses all aspects of the situation - not only<br />
legal and medical, but also moral, social and ethical aspects and the <br />
dilemmas faced when this topic is addressed. Ms. Durant raises <br />
significant questions that must be addressed as organ transplants become<br />
more commonplace in today's times. A thought provoking book that should<br />
be read by everyone as this question touches every American. Highly <br />
recommended.</i></div></blockquote></div><blockquote><div style="clear: both; text-align: LEFT;"><i><br /></i><br />
<i>J. D. Yencharis</i><br /><br />
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topic she focuses on. If you want to learn details about a topic and <br />
get some cutting edge viewpoints related to it, read anything Elyssa <br />
Durant writes. </i></div></blockquote><blockquote class="tr_bq"><i>Stuart Silverberg, Ed.D. <br />Columbia University </i></blockquote><br /><br />
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Durant has a talent for explaining complex legal issues in interesting,<br />
accessible format. Her level of expertise on the subject matter is <br />
impressive and comes through on every page. </i><br /><br />
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<i>Rick Silver, Esq.</i></blockquote><br /><br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq"><i>Ms.<br />
Durant has drawn on her sterling academic background and extensive <br />
experience in health services policy development and actual service in <br />
the field to present a comprehensive analysis of the organ transplant <br />
situation in the United States. She thoroughly discusses all aspects of <br />
the situation - not only legal and medical, but also moral, social and <br />
ethical aspects and the dilemmas faced when this topic is addressed. <br />
Ms. Durant raises significant questions that must be addressed as organ <br />
transplants become more commonplace in today's times. A thought <br />
provoking book that should be read by everyone as this question touches <br />
every American. Highly recommended. </i><br /><br />
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<i>Ray Harris</i><br /><br />
<i>Advocate for People with Disablities</i></blockquote><br /><br />
<div style="text-align: justify;"><blockquote class="tr_bq"><i>Ms.<br />
Durant has an amazing ability to discuss complex policy issues in easy <br />
to understand language. She has a tremendous grasp of her topic and of<br />
her audience. Easy to read and understand; Ms. Durant explains <br />
difficult concepts and evolving health care law and policy issues in a <br />
user friendly manner. A real eye opener! </i><br /><br />
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posts. AutismAid has been a dream of mine for ten years. my heart was <br />
just about broken when others took advantage of us. I know that in the <br />
end we meet people who we connect with and do the right thing. The 13 <br />
Service non profits under the AutismAid Umbrella and many others are in <br />
the fight for their life in this economy and environment. This Web and <br />
viral traffic is great. Thank you providing the support, documentation <br />
and logistics are needed to make the event happen. </i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Tim Welsh, Executive Director</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #0b5394;"><i>AutismAid.org </i></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><b><i></i></b></span></div></blockquote><br /><br />
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Circuit wrote this week that the First Amendment shields Comcast Corp. from Congress’s authority to ensure the free flow of information across the basic network connections it provides.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="82" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Kavanaugh’s assertion accompanied a ruling by the three-judge panel that reversed a Federal Communications Commission action against Comcast. Although the other two judges on the court did not endorse Kavanaugh’s First Amendment argument, it will come up again later this year -- in a case brought against the FCC by <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/quote/VZ:US" title="Get Quote" class="web_ticker" nodeindex="169" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Verizon Communications Inc. (VZ)</a></span></font></p><p nodeindex="83" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The court should resist this reasoning, or risk trivializing the freedom of speech that the First Amendment truly protects.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="84" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">This week’s case, <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/quote/CMCSA:US" title="Get Quote" class="web_ticker" nodeindex="170" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Comcast Corp. (CMCSA)</a>v. FCC, concerned the 1992 Cable Act, enacted at a time when policy makers rightly worried that cable operators would favor the channels that they increasingly controlled. The statute directed the FCC to prevent cable companies from discriminating among programming providers if the effect of such discrimination is to “unreasonably restrain the ability of an unaffiliated video programming vendor to compete fairly.”</span></font></p><p nodeindex="85" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Comcast is both the <a href="http://fastnetnews.com/dslprime/42-d/4905-us-2012" title="Open Web Site" rel="external" target="_blank" nodeindex="171" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">largest</a> high-speed<a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/internet-access/" nodeindex="172" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Internet-access</a> provider and the biggest American video distributor, and faces little competition within its territories for the wires it installs in American homes. At the same time, it owns a controlling interest in Golf Channel and NBC Sports Network, which Comcast distributes as part of its most popular “Expanded Basic” and “Digital Starter” bundles. Meanwhile, the company relegates Tennis Channel, a competitor, to its far-less-popular “Sports Tier,” which focuses on sports programming and requires subscribers to pay additional fees.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="86" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Other cable distributors mimic Comcast’s treatment of Tennis Channel, which claims that this prevents it from reaching the 40 million-subscriber threshold required to attract national advertising. The FCC agreed last year that Comcast’s activities amounted to unlawful discrimination.</span></font></p><h2 nodeindex="87" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 2.5em 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times" size="3"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Free Speech</span></font></h2><p nodeindex="88" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">In its appeal of the FCC’s ruling, Comcast wrapped itself in the mantle of the First Amendment, claiming that it is a speaker akin to the <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/new-york/" nodeindex="173" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">New York</a> Times. The FCC’s order that Comcast carry specific content to a specific audience amounted to an unconstitutional intrusion, the company said. In his concurring opinion this week, Judge Kavanaugh was strongly sympathetic to this claim, saying “the FCC cannot tell Comcast how to exercise its editorial discretion about what networks to carry any more than the Government can tell Amazon or Politics and Prose or Barnes & Noble what books to sell; or tell the Wall Street Journal or Politico or the Drudge Report what columns to carry.”</span></font></p><p nodeindex="89" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Congress, though, has long distinguished basic information transmission facilities from newspapers; there is a sharp difference between a facility that allows someone else’s speech to be transmitted, and expression itself. Indeed, all of American communications policy is based on this premise.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="90" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">In enacting the 1992 Cable Act, Congress was concerned that the operator of the single wire into a home would have the power and incentive to pick and choose among sources of speech and thereby constrain Americans’ access to information. No one watching a particular channel would think that Comcast, by virtue of transmitting it, was “speaking.” And even if Comcast is, in some blunt way, “speaking” through its choice of channels, the rules against discrimination aren’t meant to further the “message” of <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/tennis-channel/" nodeindex="174" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Tennis Channel</a>. The government just wants fair competition.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="91" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">In a separate case before the same court, Verizon is making a similar claim. According to the company, an FCC rule that keeps an Internet-access network provider from blocking its customers’ access to any content violates its First Amendment right to control the speech it transmits. The rule amounts to compelled speech, and is thus as unconstitutional as a law ordering a newspaper what to publish. Verizon claims the right to edit the Internet with absolute discretion.</span></font></p><h2 nodeindex="92" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 2.5em 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times" size="3"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Closed Market</span></font></h2><p nodeindex="93" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Hundreds of millions of Americans entrust giant, private digital-network providers with their First Amendment-protected speech. These providers -- principally Comcast and Time Warner Cable Inc. over wires, and Verizon and <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/quote/T:US" title="Get Quote" class="web_ticker" nodeindex="175" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">AT&T Inc. (T)</a> in wireless -- have acted <a href="http://www.yalelawjournal.org/the-yale-law-journal/article/parallel-exclusion/" title="Open Web Site" rel="external" target="_blank" nodeindex="176" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">in parallel</a> to exclude competition in their individual geographic and product marketplaces. At this point, it would be extraordinarily difficult for any new entrant to achieve the scale it would take to cut into the incumbents’ profits.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="94" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">As a result, the country that invented the Internet is lagging behind other nations; only people in <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/mexico/" nodeindex="177" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Mexico</a>, <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/israel/" nodeindex="178" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Israel</a>, <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/chile/" nodeindex="179" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Chile</a>, <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/new-zealand/" nodeindex="180" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">New Zealand</a>and <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/greece/" nodeindex="181" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Greece</a> pay more than Americans for each megabit per second of Internet access, according to the Organization for Economic Cooperation and Development.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="95" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Now, the same companies are claiming First Amendment immunity from any congressional oversight. Other enormous industries have seen the appeal of this argument: Last year, the pharmaceutical industry successfully argued that the First Amendment shielded it from prosecution for promoting off-label use of a drug approved by the <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/food-and-drug-administration/" nodeindex="182" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Food and Drug Administration</a>.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="96" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For the Internet-access providers, this implausible argument must not stand: If business decisions were constitutionally protected speech, every <a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/government-regulation/" nodeindex="183" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">government regulation</a> would be presumptively unconstitutional. Surely the First Amendment wasn’t intended to be used as a shield to protect power in the marketplace.</span></font></p><p nodeindex="97" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">(<a href="http://mobile.bloomberg.com/topics/susan-crawford/" nodeindex="184" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">Susan Crawford</a>, a contributor to Bloomberg View and a professor at the Cardozo School of Law, is the author of “Captive Audience: The Telecom Industry and Monopoly Power in the New Gilded Age.” The opinions expressed are her own.)</span></font></p><p nodeindex="98" style="text-align: -webkit-auto; margin: 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px; "><font face="Times"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">To contact the writer of this article: Susan P. Crawford at scrawford@scrawford.net or<a href="https://twitter.com/scrawford" title="Open Web Site" rel="external" target="_blank" nodeindex="185" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; ">@scrawford</a> on Twitter</span></font></p></div></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-57895448083686962812013-05-04T05:53:00.003-05:002013-05-04T05:53:57.100-05:00Un-entitled by Cody G © 2007<b>Un-entitled by Cody G © 2007</b><br />
<i>(former client of mine... patient journal)</i><b> </b><br />
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Here I lay in my hospital bed,<br />
My mind is lost, my heart is dead.<br />
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Please don’t feel my life is pain.<br />
My shirt is marked with a big red stain.<br />
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I kept it real by the marks on me,<br />
I have more emotions than there are fish in the sea.<br />
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Turned all around at break neck speed,<br />
Just a little serenity is all I need.<br />
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When it comes to crazy, I do it great,<br />
But when I find my mind it will be too late.<br />
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I can’t really tell you exactly how I feel,<br />
Until I find out the wounds will never heal.<br />
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<i>“The paradox of education is precisely this— that as one begins to become <br />
educated, one begins to examine the society in which he [or she] is <br />
being educated.” - Baldwin</i>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3977983729270392635.post-34417320975366456252013-04-26T02:02:00.001-05:002013-04-26T02:02:31.385-05:00Stop Cyber Spying Week <div class='posterous_autopost'>Stop Cyber Spying Week – Join EFF in a Week of Action Opposing CISPA | Electronic Frontier Foundation <a href="https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2012/04/stop-cyber-spying-week-join-eff-week-action-opposing-cispa">https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2012/04/stop-cyber-spying-week-join-eff-week-ac...</a> You may have already heard about CISPA, the cybersecurity bill moving quickly through the House that would let companies like Google, Facebook, and AT&T snoop on our communications and hand sensitive user data to the government without a court order. Promoted under the guise of protecting America from cybersecurity attacks, the truth is that this legislation would carve out shockingly large exceptions to the bedrock privacy rights of Internet users. That’s why EFF is joining a coalition of other organizations in speaking out against this cyber spying bill – and we’re calling on the Internet community to join us.The goal of Stop Cyber Spying Week is simple: get Congress to back off of any cybersnooping legislation that sacrifices the civil liberties of Internet users. Here’s what you can do to help:1. Join the Twitter campaign – because Congress is vacuuming up Too Much Information. We’re engaging in a revolutionary kind of Twitter activism. Use our new Congressional Twitter handle detection tool to find your member of Congress on Twitter. Then write them tweets about the kind of things you do online that are none of the government business. Show your congressperson the many things you do online – the personal, the mundane, whatever – so they can see just how much personal, unnecessary data could be vacuumed up as a result of the legislation’s dangerously vague language. Use the hashtags #CongressTMI and #CISPA. Sample tweet:.@NancyPelosi Does the military really need to know I signed up for Google+ when it first came out, but haven’t posted since? #CongressTMI Stop #CISPA <p><a href="https://eff.org/r.1X22">https://eff.org/r.1X22</a>. </p><p>Send an email to Congress. We need to make it clear to Congress that they can’t push legislation that undermines all existing privacy laws. Use EFF’s action center to email your Congressional representatives to tell them to oppose CISPA.3. Publish a statement opposing CISPA. Post an update to your blog or social networking site telling folks to join you in opposing any CyberSecurity legislation that sacrifices civil liberties. Sample statement:Congress is currently considering CISPA – the Cyber Intelligence Sharing & Protection Act – a bill that purports to protect the United States from “cyber threats” but would in fact create a gaping loophole in all existing privacy laws. If CISPA passes, companies could vacuum up huge swaths of data on everyday Internet users and share it with the government without a court order. I oppose CISPA, and I’m calling on Congress to reject any legislation that: * Uses dangerously vague language to define the breadth of data that can be shared with the government. *</p><p>Hands the reins of America’s CyberSecurity defenses to the NSA, an agency with no transparency and little accountability. * Allows data shared with the government to be used for purposes unrelated to CyberSecurity</p><p>.Join me in opposing this bill by posting this statement on your own page and using this online form to send a letter to Congress against CISPA:https://action.eff.org/o/9042/p/dia/action/public/?action_KEY=84444. Make your opposition to CISPA heard. Write op-eds, blog articles, status updates or Tweets. </p><p>Tell the world why you are opposing CISPA and why Internet users need to be able to read and communicate in private. And keep an eye on the EFF Deeplinks blog –we’ll take a closer look at the grave civil liberties implications of this bill, from its lack of public accountability to why CyberSecurity and national security should be kept separate.What are you doing to oppose CISPA? Tell EFF! </p><p>Email <a href="mailto:action@eff.org">action@eff.org</a> with a description and any relevant links. Also check out our new FAQ about the bill.</p></div>Elyssa D'Educrathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16919707967706524925noreply@blogger.com0